Venting I need help...again...

[FoxSauce]

Well my psychiatrist wants me to take lithium in small dosages beacuse I was a bit hypomanic as she said and she says it was for a trial but she was gonna monitor me. I try to be honest with her.

I decided to confide it to my mom for her opinion and she was against it she said that didntt do anything to get better she was telling me that Im always on my phone which is true i do that at night.

She also told me just drink tea for a few months to hell me sleep and that lithium is super dangerous for the body. It can damage skin , kidneys and other areas she says it was like a poison.



She said I was indecipline and was just going on she said that she had depression too and she was able to go through it. Through therapy in a year and got super skinny.


I felt guilty so I started crying and I screamed at her that she doesn't understand what I'm going through.


I was just exhausted of her behavior maybe her hear was in the right place and I appreciate the fact she's looking out for me but im at a crossroads I need help..

I still feel guilty that I'm doing enough to get better that I'm not trying. I told her off that she doesn't listen to us when we need her most and another bunch of stuff.

Im scared im scared of myself , I'm broken I just want someone to tell me that yes you have a reason to be upset or no your just blowing things out of propotion


I try commutincaring in a gentle manner I tried my best. My mom isnt empathetic or patience at all I dont want her to be mad at me.


I feel like she's better of without me.

I feel so alone I don't understand any of this

Im sorry if im talking to much i just need some help.


What should I do?

 

[SecretDissociation]

Hey, you are trying really hard. If you are seeing a psychiatrist and looking for medication and trying to communciate with your mother then you are trying. I have a father that doesn't understand. He has depression but he's 'fine'. So I should be to and there's nothing wrong with me.

Your phone isn't the problem, and tea isn't going to fix mood instability or depression. It might help you feel relaxed but is it truly what you want?

Lithium won't damage you unless it is in large amounts, and your psychiatrist said she will monitor you and you will start from a small dosage. So f anything does go wrong, your Dr will catch it early. Do what is right for you! Try the lithium and you can drink tea at night too.

Don't feel like you can only choose either option. You are brave, and you are strong, and you seem intelligent and insightful from this post.

I believe in you <3.

 

[FoxSauce]

Hey, you are trying really hard. If you are seeing a psychiatrist and looking for medication and trying to communciate with your mother then you are trying. I have a father that doesn't understand. He has depression but he's 'fine'. So I should be to and there's nothing wrong with me.

Your phone isn't the problem, and tea isn't going to fix mood instability or depression. It might help you feel relaxed but is it truly what you want?

Lithium won't damage you unless it is in large amounts, and your psychiatrist said she will monitor you and you will start from a small dosage. So f anything does go wrong, your Dr will catch it early. Do what is right for you! Try the lithium and you can drink tea at night too.

Don't feel like you can only choose either option. You are brave, and you are strong, and you seem intelligent and insightful from this post.

I believe in you <3.

Also im just saying that my mom said after my first hospitalization she says it was way better yes it was fault that I was hospitalized again cuz I stopped taking my medication

Still am i in the wrong or?

Thank you so much for listening

Im not bipolar there just trying to help

 

[SecretDissociation]

Also im just saying that my mom said after my first hospitalization she says it was way better yes it was fault that I was hospitalized again cuz I stopped taking my medication

Still am i in the wrong or?

Thank you so much for listening

Im not bipolar there just trying to help

No, boo you're not in the wrong. We really don't get a choice with these things. I don't get to choose if I am mentally ill and have to live my life with medication or live my life with endless suicide attempts, so don't blame yourself, again, you aren't in the wrong.

Unless you've hurt someone (which from what I read you didn't!) you aren't in the wrong. Plus, we make mistakes.

You should speak with your Dr psychiatrist! Tell her your concerns and maybe, if you want, about the conversation with your mother.

It's your choice and your life and you should choose what is right for you!