I need a perfect method with limited options (19F)

[barelyhere]

There's a lot of things I'm unable to do

Like guns which would be the easy option but I can't because of where I live

Things that cost a lot of money because I'm not in charge of my finances I might be able to get one or two small cheap things though

Overdose is a maybe because everything is locked away but I might be able to sneak some or bust the code but idk if there's any meds rn so not yet at least

And there's probably more I haven't thought of that I'm unable to do

I really don't want to be alive anymore but I don't have many options because I'm not allowed to live alone because of my mental state and have to be taken care of

I also need a way that probably won't fail because if I do fail I'll probably live under even more strict conditions and I won't ever be able to end my pain

 

[Holu]

Blood choke maybe? Idk. I'm really really sorry for what you're going through. Unfortunately I don't have an answer, but I really hate to see these unanswered posts so just here to say, "Hi I see you" as well as move this to the recents. Hopefully someone with better knowledge will respond.

That being said there are posts detailing possible methods. Browse a bit thru them.

Best of luck to you soldier

 

[FuneralCry]

I hate how suicide is so unnecessarily complicated and risky in this world, all those who wish to be gone should just be able to die in peace without struggle. To me it's cruel to force people into this world where there is no straightforward and reliable way to leave, I think that if there were reliable and easily accessible methods that had no risks associated with them and weren't really awful I would be long gone at this point. But sadly we exist in such an anti suicide society that limits access to more reliable methods. Anyway, I hope that you find what you are searching for, it sounds awful being trapped in that situation.

 

[juxtajuno]

i've thought about hanging myself with my own bedsheets or something before. some sort of sturdy rope-adjacent thing. it's not foolproof at all but if it's what you have to hang yourself then it's worth a shot. i hope you're able to find peace through whatever method you choose.

 

[barelyhere]

I hate how suicide is so unnecessarily complicated and risky in this world, all those who wish to be gone should just be able to die in peace without struggle. To me it's cruel to force people into this world where there is no straightforward and reliable way to leave, I think that if there were reliable and easily accessible methods that had no risks associated with them and weren't really awful I would be long

Blood choke maybe? Idk. I'm really really sorry for what you're going through. Unfortunately I don't have an answer, but I really hate to see these unanswered posts so just here to say, "Hi I see you" as well as move this to the recents. Hopefully someone with better knowledge will respond.

That being said there are posts detailing possible methods. Browse a bit thru them.

Best of luck to you soldier

thanks I appreciate it

i've thought about hanging myself with my own bedsheets or something before. some sort of sturdy rope-adjacent thing. it's not foolproof at all but if it's what you have to hang yourself then it's worth a shot. i hope you're able to find peace through whatever method you choose.

Yes I've attempted that way before in my closet but it failed

Might try it again that way if I can't find a more sure method

 

[The Howling Void]

I wrestle with this too. I feel like hydrogen sulfide is pretty easy and cheap. Just mix a few things and voila. The con is that it endangers others. And it sounds scary even though it supposedly knocks you out fast: the gas burns your lungs ace throat. So I can't bring myself to do it. I have a car I can use but I don't want to threaten bystanders first responders.

 

[jnpx321]

There's a lot of things I'm unable to do

Like guns which would be the easy option but I can't because of where I live

Things that cost a lot of money because I'm not in charge of my finances I might be able to get one or two small cheap things though

Overdose is a maybe because everything is locked away but I might be able to sneak some or bust the code but idk if there's any meds rn so not yet at least

And there's probably more I haven't thought of that I'm unable to do

I really don't want to be alive anymore but I don't have many options because I'm not allowed to live alone because of my mental state and have to be taken care of

I also need a way that probably won't fail because if I do fail I'll probably live under even more strict conditions and I won't ever be able to end my pain

Hi, where are you from? And why do you want to die?

 

[barelyhere]

Hi, where are you from? And why do you want to die?

I'm from the Uk

And I don't really have a straight forward reason why I want to die it's a lot of different reasons stacked up

 

[QiTianDaSheng]

Living in the UK is a big enough one on its own. Awful place. The constant surveillance and propaganda is just... Urgh.

Amen to the different reasons stacked up. 'Cant get a job' is basically my reason, but that alone would not be enough.

Anyway, to original question. I still think decapitation with rope and drop is least difficult to achieve. 5m of strong rope, good knot, and a bridge with sturdy railings.

... Pop goes the weasel

 

[Mr. ‘K so?]

There is no perfect methods, only cheap and easy.
Hell, you can slide under in the bath, but you're gonna find that your body has these funny things called involuntary movements. You will thrash and jerk around because your body doesn't want to die, as per instinct, and someone will hear that and intervene, as per instinct.

If you use a blood choke like the earlier guy suggested, you will be out in 10-15 seconds, and you should be able to breath due to the vessels not airway being compressed.
Now here's my two cents so feel free to take it or tell me idk what I'm talking about: You're still a kid, not in a bad way. You're still maturing and growing. Figure out what you want in yourself, like what do you like and know. You might be surprised at how petty these things were looking back.

But hey what do I know. Sorry for the wall

 

[barelyhere]

Living in the UK is a big enough one on its own. Awful place. The constant surveillance and propaganda is just... Urgh.

Amen to the different reasons stacked up. 'Cant get a job' is basically my reason, but that alone would not be enough.

Anyway, to original question. I still think decapitation with rope and drop is least difficult to achieve. 5m of strong rope, good knot, and a bridge with sturdy railings.

... Pop goes the weasel

Yeah it feels like in the UK the "support" you get isn't actually helpful like I almost succeeded at ctb before and the doctors "saved" me even though I didn't want saving just to expect me to be greatful and making me speak to CAMHS who denied that I am mentally ill and not giving me any real help

 

[timetodie24]

Sorry things are so tough for you. I'm in similar situation, 22F. my family is basically on suicide watch due to previous attempts. Don't think SN is going to be possible for me and need quick method i can get past family.

 

[Mr. ‘K so?]

Sorry things are so tough for you. I'm in similar situation, 22F. my family is basically on suicide watch due to previous attempts. Don't think SN is going to be possible for me and need quick method i can get past family.

A gun would do that do that, but just like the cops do, you have too many eyes on you. Everything takes minimum an hour to work, which it sounds like you don't have. There is nothing immediate, so your best option is to be "normal" long enough to stop being watched. It's the long game, so you're gonna figure out if you really want to go or if you just want attention.

 

[terminalending]

There's a lot of things I'm unable to do

Like guns which would be the easy option but I can't because of where I live

Things that cost a lot of money because I'm not in charge of my finances I might be able to get one or two small cheap things though

Overdose is a maybe because everything is locked away but I might be able to sneak some or bust the code but idk if there's any meds rn so not yet at least

And there's probably more I haven't thought of that I'm unable to do

I really don't want to be alive anymore but I don't have many options because I'm not allowed to live alone because of my mental state and have to be taken care of

I also need a way that probably won't fail because if I do fail I'll probably live under even more strict conditions and I won't ever be able to end my pain

have you considered partial/full suspension or drowning? i think these two are the most accessible ones, no matter one's circumstances

 

[timetodie24]

A gun would do that do that, but just like the cops do, you have too many eyes on you. Everything takes minimum an hour to work, which it sounds like you don't have. There is nothing immediate, so your best option is to be "normal" long enough to stop being watched. It's the long game, so you're gonna figure out if you really want to go or if you just want attention.

Gun isn't an option at all for me as in england we have very strict gun laws.

I can get a few hours to myself if I'm saying I'm meeting up with friends but they track my phone. So I was thinking of SN, collecting it from PO box and taking straight away. But would have to take it somewhere i wouldn't be found quickly and turn tracking off. Which would raise suspicion so would have to hope it's over before they realise im not with friends.
Also SN is looking increasingly difficult to get here, especially with recent article.

I guess partial suspension could work during the night at home if won't be found till morning or next time they leave me home alone for a couple hours (but it rarely happens that all my family are out and i'm in ). But it's high risk of being found or failing and being brain damaged which terrifies me .

I guess bridge or train i could do before they realise , just not sure i have the guts and can fight SI .

Yeah i guess the long game would make it easier, just need to convince my family i'm getting better but would also need to convince my mental health team. If MH discharge me then my family would trust me a lot more. But they're hard to convince as been honest with MH team that i want to ctb, just not that i've been trying to plan. i just don't feel I have the time to play long game though, i can't take this much longer. I can't wait months, not sure i can even wait weeks.
I have appointment with my nurse this week, i might test out how much they'll believe i'm doing okay .

I really don't want attention, far from it. I just want my family and services to step back and let me ctb. I've tried living for long enough and im sure i just want a quick bus out now.

 

[Mr. ‘K so?]

Gun isn't an option at all for me as in england we have very strict gun laws.

I can get a few hours to myself if I'm saying I'm meeting up with friends but they track my phone. So I was thinking of SN, collecting it from PO box and taking straight away. But would have to take it somewhere i wouldn't be found quickly and turn tracking off. Which would raise suspicion so would have to hope it's over before they realise im not with friends.
Also SN is looking increasingly difficult to get here, especially with recent article.

I guess partial suspension could work during the night at home if won't be found till morning or next time they leave me home alone for a couple hours (but it rarely happens that all my family are out and i'm in ). But it's high risk of being found or failing and being brain damaged which terrifies me .

I guess bridge or train i could do before they realise , just not sure i have the guts and can fight SI .

Yeah i guess the long game would make it easier, just need to convince my family i'm getting better but would also need to convince my mental health team. If MH discharge me then my family would trust me a lot more. But they're hard to convince as been honest with MH team that i want to ctb, just not that i've been trying to plan. i just don't feel I have the time to play long game though, i can't take this much longer. I can't wait months, not sure i can even wait weeks.
I have appointment with my nurse this week, i might test out how much they'll believe i'm doing okay .

I really don't want attention, far from it. I just want my family and services to step back and let me ctb. I've tried living for long enough and im sure i just want a quick bus out now.

They aren't going to just step back because it's either their job or they are hardwired by nature to want you alive like your family. It's normal to want your family to not die. I wasn't suggesting a gun as a serious way, more of an example. Where I live, it is stupid easy to get a gun, probably the second easiest place in the US. You don't even wanna know what it takes to get a driver's license here.

Here's my 2 cents on the "I can't wait" thing:

Bro you live in the fucking UK, the hell is so hard that you can't put up with it for an extra year to not have so many moving parts? I live in a place that property outweighs human life by at least 4:1, we do not make enough money to live not working for someone from somewhere else, and it's still not that bad. I've been suicidal for the last 20 years, it will not leave me whether I want it to or not. The one thought that made it longer was that even if you have one person you give a fuck about, you not being around is going to have a negative effect. If it doesn't bother you, good news is you're narcissistic enough to kill yourself.

Tldr you don't sound sick or in major pain, so yeah you got time. You sound like a kid that's just going through a long shitty time. Don't take that as negative

 

[timetodie24]

They aren't going to just step back because it's either their job or they are hardwired by nature to want you alive like your family. It's normal to want your family to not die. I wasn't suggesting a gun as a serious way, more of an example. Where I live, it is stupid easy to get a gun, probably the second easiest place in the US. You don't even wanna know what it takes to get a driver's license here.

Here's my 2 cents on the "I can't wait" thing:

Bro you live in the fucking UK, the hell is so hard that you can't put up with it for an extra year to not have so many moving parts? I live in a place that property outweighs human life by at least 4:1, we do not make enough money to live not working for someone from somewhere else, and it's still not that bad. I've been suicidal for the last 20 years, it will not leave me whether I want it to or not. The one thought that made it longer was that even if you have one person you give a fuck about, you not being around is going to have a negative effect. If it doesn't bother you, good news is you're narcissistic enough to kill yourself.

Tldr you don't sound sick or in major pain, so yeah you got time. You sound like a kid that's just going through a long shitty time. Don't take that as negative

I'm sorry that where you live makes life so difficult and I'm sorry to hear you've been suicidal for so long. I can't imagine how hard that is.

But you're making a lot of bold assumptions from the little info I shared. I deleted my original reply to this as feel like we're detracting from the purpose of this thread. But you have no idea what my life is like or what I've been through. Yes some people here have it so much worse than me. But I absolutely cannot wait a year. End of discussion.

 

[Hihihehehuhu]

Shallow water blackout maybe ? Im planning to use that method and thats free and painless