Lost cherry
Student
- Oct 21, 2023
- 144
3 months ago we broke up. No one understand me. Friends are just stupid and selfish idiots. I feel so lonely and unconditionally sad. I find new good job in some hospital. I know this job is great for me. But still i am empty. My soul and heart screaming all the time. I dont know what to do. I have sn . Maybe to try few times more to talk with him before ctb. I know i said i will do it at February or march.. but every new day for me is too long and so fucking terrible. And i think i will drink sn soon.. i cant wait untill march. But, sometimes i think about that maybe i need to wait , maybe something change. I had the most wonderful life only 3 months ago. And now i am new person, i am stranger for myself. I feel so much guilty and i cant live without him..I wrote so much farewell letters..but now i dont want to write, because this is not important, and no sense if i want to ctb. Fuck this shit letters i just want to go ..
