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Giles Corey - No One Is Ever Going To Want Me
Sep 15, 2023
12
i read a couple posts by the same person talking about their suicide until the day they committed
I felt close to this person even though they are dead and don't know me, but I miss them
they talked about their life in some of their posts and how they had a younger sibling, they reminded me of myself
I'm not good at saying what I feel but all I can say is that I miss them, I feel the same way when looking at old photo albums with people who are long dead now
 
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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,191
I feel a deep sense of regret for making friends here. The friends I made here are the friends I've wanted my whole life, I was unaware that they'd leave me very soon before I got to know them well.

But yes, I also miss those who I wasn't very close to, as well. Its sad seeing so many people go but its the fact of life, at least if you're part of our minority, those who use SS.
 
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ringo99

ringo99

Arcanist
Apr 18, 2023
479
Vizzy is the one I miss the most here. He always seemed to be around with helpful advice on how to ctb. There was a kind of precision to him. No bs just straight to the point. I always appreciated that.

RIP buddy o7
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,536
Yes, this is my third account since 2020.
I've talked to some of the most amazing people on this forum in the past who are no longer here.
I still think of some of them because we used to chat a lot and had gone through similar experiences in life.
I stayed up last weekend to chat with someone who didn't want to be alone before ctb.
They were one of the most intelligent and insightful people I had ever talked to, and it hit me hard when they went.
I have thought about them several times this week, yet am glad they are no longer suffering.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,361
At least they are at peace now and cannot suffer anymore. I always envy those who are now peacefully not existing.
 
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nibbleone

Student
Oct 14, 2023
112
I miss Vizzy too. What a cool cat.
 
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carac

Banned
May 27, 2023
1,116
The ones I remember most were hopefulsleep and jule_from_germany. Hopefulsleep was always posting, asking questions since I first joined, he seemed so desperate, I will always remember his avatar, don't even know what it was, some confused looking anime dude haha. And his last goodbye post was so sad. Then jules, she was declining physically and wanted her own way out, I believe she died naturally in the end, I was happy she found peace and is now resting, she gave a lot here and got a lot of comfort back I felt.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,201
While I met some awesome people here (who may have passed) I won't make attachments to people on this forum. It would be too painful for me and I am not very good at it anyway.
 
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Ε. Η. R.

Ε. Η. R.

Experienced
Oct 5, 2023
266
I really regret that I found this site too late. I'm going to cbt by the end of this year.
I met the fatal monster ("human") on April 21, 2018. That's why I'm in hell now.
If I had come here in the first place, there wouldn't have been all this absolute hell for 5 years. I could help people, make good friends...
 
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WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,536
The ones I remember most were hopefulsleep and jule_from_germany. Hopefulsleep was always posting, asking questions since I first joined, he seemed so desperate, I will always remember his avatar, don't even know what it was, some confused looking anime dude haha. And his last goodbye post was so sad. Then jules, she was declining physically and wanted her own way out, I believe she died naturally in the end, I was happy she found peace and is now resting, she gave a lot here and got a lot of comfort back I felt.
Yes, I remember jule.
At one point She thought the surgery had helped, and then found out it hadn't. So sad.
 
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something_feels

something_feels

New Member
Aug 22, 2023
4
This comments are genuinely making me tear up, man. I'm so fucking sorry for all of your losses
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,536
While I met some awesome people here (who may have passed) I won't make attachments to people on this forum. It would be too painful for me and I am not very good at it anyway.
Yes, very good advice. I have made the mistake of doing this and it's awful.
 
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Iamtired

Iamtired

Experienced
Sep 30, 2023
208
I really regret that I found this site too late. I'm going to cbt by the end of this year.
I met the fatal monster ("human") on April 21, 2018. That's why I'm in hell now.
If I had come here in the first place, there wouldn't have been all this absolute hell for 5 years. I could help people, make good friends...
Is the human you refer to as a monster a Psychopath? Or is this something totally different & im misunderstanding. Sorry again if I am…
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
3,563
If you are on here fir a while, this is an issue. The good thing is they are remembered and missed. They are part of our family.
 
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XdragonsoulX

XdragonsoulX

Vengeance Incarnate
Apr 13, 2022
154
I miss a few souls here, I never knew them personally and only really read their posts. But those who gave their stories and their experiences stick with me I remember them, but I have my peace and remember them when it gets too heavy
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Illuminated
Feb 13, 2020
3,234
That's the down side of befriending people here...

Some users will forever hold a little place in my heart.
@faust @TheNorthernSilence @phezel @leeloosnow

But even though it hurts , it won't stop me befriending others. I feel fortunate to have met these people, especially here, especially in the darkest part of their lives. They gave me their trust and friendship, I can only see the beauty of that.
 
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thereisthemist

thereisthemist

drops common loot when defeated
Nov 5, 2021
159
I say, give huggies, while you still can...
 
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SNastablesalt

SNastablesalt

she longs for freedom
Oct 6, 2023
148
i read a couple posts by the same person talking about their suicide until the day they committed
I felt close to this person even though they are dead and don't know me, but I miss them
they talked about their life in some of their posts and how they had a younger sibling, they reminded me of myself
I'm not good at saying what I feel but all I can say is that I miss them, I feel the same way when looking at old photo albums with people who are long dead now
this is my first post on here, lol, I've been lurking for about a year now. I miss vizzy.
 
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deathxo

deathxo

Member
Aug 10, 2023
42
That comes with the territory no 😂 Each one of us, taking the elevator outta here, one by one. While the rest wave goodbye.
In all honestly, I get deathly afraid of even replying to goodbye threads. Somehow it's just too disturbing to wrap my head around. Their last steps & plan & then they will be no more. As much as I want to send some love and last kind words, I can't bring myself to do it.

I also miss Pracheen Kal. Never talked to them or anything, but saw them sharing the plan, asking for advice, hastening their plan. They were so desperate. I miss not saying their name anymore here :( I hope they have some peace now, Wherever they may be.
 
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Namensjemand

Namensjemand

Cursed
Jul 16, 2023
109
Those who died tended to be those most composed.

But truth is WE all are the end spectrum of a Vortex of BS and any Angel in this Vortex to be Kind ist Like Armageddon by Bruce Willis even though IT IS George Bush by oil 4 blood or sth
 
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betternever2havbeen

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,030
The ones I remember most were hopefulsleep and jule_from_germany. Hopefulsleep was always posting, asking questions since I first joined, he seemed so desperate, I will always remember his avatar, don't even know what it was, some confused looking anime dude haha. And his last goodbye post was so sad. Then jules, she was declining physically and wanted her own way out, I believe she died naturally in the end, I was happy she found peace and is now resting, she gave a lot here and got a lot of comfort back I felt.

It's incredibly sad, the people I spoke to a bit on here privately, I never even knew until a couple weeks after they'd CTB that they actually went through with it-don't know how I missed their goodbye threads. Gutted I didn't get to talk with them one last time. Hopefulsleep always comes to mind for me as well, such a sad story all around with him.
 
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babychicken🐥

Member
Oct 13, 2023
12
I get kinda sad just seeing the crossed out name:( I hope they are happier now at least:)
 
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Ε. Η. R.

Ε. Η. R.

Experienced
Oct 5, 2023
266
Is the human you refer to as a monster a Psychopath? Or is this something totally different & im misunderstanding. Sorry again if I am…
Worse.
I'm not sure about her diagnosis.
she once wrote to me the kindest and most gentle words that I have heard in my life . Then she betrayed me, then tortured, hounding me along with the whore (in the literal sense of the word).
This is a long story and cannot be explained in a couple of sentences. Hopefully I'll gather strength this week to write my story.
Sorry if my English sounds strange.
 
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Iamtired

Iamtired

Experienced
Sep 30, 2023
208
Worse.
I'm not sure about her diagnosis.
She once wrote to me the kindest and most gentle words that I have heard in my life . Then she betrayed me, then tortured, hounding me along with the whore (in the literal sense of the word).
This is a long story and cannot be explained in a couple of sentences. Hopefully I'll gather strength this week to write my story.
Sorry if my English sounds strange.
😞🤦🏻‍♀️
I had a similar thing happen to me. But "male" version or whatever one can call him. But I only met him a year ago and my life fell apart. I'm sorry this happened to you. I am in torturous pain and wish to CTB by the end of this year too.
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,157
I just hope they have found peace.
 
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RW__Asher23

Global Mod
Dec 11, 2022
204
leeloosnow :heart: RIP

The castle I made for you on my printer? Yeah it is there where you are now just for you. Because you loved it. See you on the other side. My ctb date is set. Peace.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,504
There are people I really miss too. It's an odd mixture of feelings. Part of me has to feel relieved for them. They are at peace now. Still- it's still grief and loss we experience and we probably can't tell anyone about it- outside of this community.
 
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ClownWorld2023

Arcanist
Sep 18, 2023
472
There are also people who 'disappear'.

They haven't been seen on the forums for weeks or even months.
You don't know whether they CTBed or recovered and moved on.

You can only speculate and hope they're doing fine wherever they are.
It's tough.
 
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Goodgirlryeo101

Wizard
May 27, 2023
661
I Miss Vizzy … he was such a light, may he rest in peace …..
 
avaruus

avaruus

loser · gone very soon
Aug 17, 2022
559
Personally, i never interacted with 'HopefulSleep', but damn, seeing his posts during all over the summer then suddenly, gone in august, it hit me hard.

Also the passing of 'toofargone6969' recently, can't lie, made me cry.

But i'm glad that they are at peace now.
 
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