untildeathdousapart
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- Dec 2, 2023
- 31
It has been around two months since my best friend committed suicide. The more i found out about it, the more anger i feel. She did it while she was hospitalised. The staff watched her doing that impulsive decision. She was hopeful and starting to make plans for her near future again, we even talked about meeting up only a few hours prior. That evening she got triggered, and had no one to remind her that she's loved. They watched her jumping off there, they watched her even going back from the railing first, before doing what she did. They didn't try talking nor did they try to get in contact with her. As she died, something deep within me also died. Everyday gets harder and more unbearable and I'm unsure how long I can keep going. I'm in contact with her mother, we often message each other and have met up a few times. Everything feels hopeless and horribly sad. I wish I could hug her one last time again. If i'd die, maybe I could see her again.
I need to correct myself, i do not feel anger towards her, i would never. I feel angry at the staff and how poorly they've done their job and afterwards dealt with it. (e.g. saying that they have done nothing wrong and starting arguments with the family).
I need to correct myself, i do not feel anger towards her, i would never. I feel angry at the staff and how poorly they've done their job and afterwards dealt with it. (e.g. saying that they have done nothing wrong and starting arguments with the family).