I might be the worst person I know

[Humble]

I'm so done with myself. I intentionally and unintentionally hurt myself with bad habits, and I have been doing that for years since I was young. I hate it, and I'm unsatisfied with who and what I am, but I don't change. Changing is such a huge task, and it'll take so long. It feels so pointless because I feel like I can't change. So I kind of just live rotting, knowing I need to change to succeed and that the way I am will only bring me down, but I don't know if I'm willing to put in the work. I don't even know where to start.

 

[SVEN]

You're not so bad … you just don't know me for comparison.

 

[lotus11]

Oh boy do I relate to this post so much...

 

[vak]

I feel you, habits are sooo hard to change. I remember reading that it takes around 60 days for a habit to stick, but we get discouraged way sooner. Sometimes it takes just one failure to break the chain, even though it doesn't matter at all for the habit to form on the neurological level. I wish for some kind of reset to the factory settings.. otherwise, it's hopeless

 

[InAgony]

It's hard to change when you're already trodden into the ground. I've tried putting in the work, but have hit a wall...I'm just too broken to function.

 

[piryohae3]

I get that. I've tried over 10 years to change myself for the better and for a time it seemed like it was working but something always happens that tests my resolve and I immediately revert back to what was at my core all along. Unfortunately my personality traits make me unsuited for this system so I need to leave it behind permanently. I could try again but I don't feel like it's worth it so I'm choosing to give up and die.