I made numerous posts about fate

[Insomniac]

and I still think you just can't escape it.

even if your fate is to never overcome SI and live an embarrassing life and die of old age. if this is your fate, this is your fate fam.

there's nothing you can do about it. you can only cry.

power to those of us who are destined to overcome SI.

sorry for the rest.

#BRUTALREALITY

 

[27clubBRIAN]

 

[FuneralCry]

Dying of old age sounds so horrifying. I really hope that is not my fate. I think that no matter what I will find a way to be gone before then. At least someday I will be free from it all. Our only true fate and purpose as humans is to die. Life is just a temporary, meaningless but yet so awful experience that we go through for the sake of it.

 

[hellispink]

I must be brave. I got to be courageous to fight this SI and leave. May the fate be on my side.

 

[Insomniac]

I must be brave. I got to be courageous to fight this SI and leave. May the fate be on my side.

I really like your username:)

 

[GlassAlwaysEmpty]

Welp. Guess if I somehow get to being an old man, people will judge me less for being so miserable.

Now it's "why are you miserable when you still have so much of your life ahead of you". Which makes me more miserable as I don't want to imagine living all those years.

 

[Ash’Girl]

Fate has never been on my side for anything. So many people around me are dying: heart attack, death in sleep, very aggressive cancer that took them 6 months from diagnosis (the latter horrible and painful, the former two blessedly quick). But they weren't old, and they had everything to live for: they wanted to live.

I don't: I've become a shell of a person and every day is emotional torture, and it's not just grief, it's an awful exacerbation of everything over a course of a lifetime that's taught me my fate is never to experience any sustained period of stability or happiness. I think I've got there, then fate snatches it away so quickly and in circumstances outwith anyones control.

What's the point? Endless suffering? I am so tired, but I'm still here, despite desperately not wanting to be and hating my inability to achieve escape.

I don't know why it is that all these people who didn't want to die are, and I can't seem to get there, when it's the only thing left that I actually want to achieve.