Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,201
I remember when my mother died in hospital. She took her last breath and I said, 'I'll be joining you soon mum.' You know I hear a lot of people on here who have or had a difficult relationship with their mother. I did too, but I am absolutely broken hearted since she left me. I took care of her in her final years when she was ravaged with cancer. What a brave warrior she was and she hardly complained, despite all the horrific suffering she endured. She comes to me in my dreams sometimes. It is warm and comforting. Then I wake up and I think to myself: why am I still here. I made a promise, two years ago (or maybe longer) that I would be joining her soon. Then I ask myself, how soon is soon if I am still to face another lonely day. Truth is, I never wanted to be here. I just miss my mother.
