Ali
No exist
- Dec 5, 2018
- 30
I wrote my story in Spanish and they deleted it, here it goes again.
I tried to kill myself many times, I was intoxicated with medication for several years and it did not work out, so I can see that it does not work for me despite consuming many different drugs. Last year with uka razor cut my neck in the carotid artery, I thought I had achieved it because it was a deep cut, where I fainted after feeling my body frozen, I listened to the sea, it was a strange experience, they found me and I ended up in the hospital for about 30 days with therapy. I suffered abuse and my boyfriend of 4 years left me, everything has been difficult for me so I heard suicide again, I tried to hang myself and I fainted while the rope tightened my neck, I did not resist and I can say that at that moment it was not painful I do not know what happened next, but I saw my parents on top of me screaming at me. Then I tried to buy cyanide, I heard muvho in the news of my country (chile) about 5 pardons that have ñogrado suicide and die with cyanide. Look where to buy but do not sell unless you have a card for that, I wonder how these people got it, buying another country is not possible because customs is very strict. I have thought about gas, I do not want to do it and also to hang myself but this time a day that is alone and with a stronger rope.
I'm tired of living, I lost my passion for life.
I tried to kill myself many times, I was intoxicated with medication for several years and it did not work out, so I can see that it does not work for me despite consuming many different drugs. Last year with uka razor cut my neck in the carotid artery, I thought I had achieved it because it was a deep cut, where I fainted after feeling my body frozen, I listened to the sea, it was a strange experience, they found me and I ended up in the hospital for about 30 days with therapy. I suffered abuse and my boyfriend of 4 years left me, everything has been difficult for me so I heard suicide again, I tried to hang myself and I fainted while the rope tightened my neck, I did not resist and I can say that at that moment it was not painful I do not know what happened next, but I saw my parents on top of me screaming at me. Then I tried to buy cyanide, I heard muvho in the news of my country (chile) about 5 pardons that have ñogrado suicide and die with cyanide. Look where to buy but do not sell unless you have a card for that, I wonder how these people got it, buying another country is not possible because customs is very strict. I have thought about gas, I do not want to do it and also to hang myself but this time a day that is alone and with a stronger rope.
I'm tired of living, I lost my passion for life.