I lost my only friend because of being suicidal

[edu0z]

I guess he couldn't take it anymore... one day he just stop answering my messages. Now I'm completely alone, and maybe that's what I deserve for being so weak.

 

[Tempest]

You're not weak. You're human. And it takes incredible resolve to contemplate death and continue walking towards it, and maybe even more resolve to reveal those feelings to loved ones despite knowing how they might react. I'm sorry you lost your friend this way. I can't say for sure since I don't know either of you, but I do not think he cut you off because he doesn't care for you. It isn't easy to talk to someone who is suicidal. If you recover, then I hope you can mend your friendship. If you continue to have suicidal thoughts, then I hope you can find someone to share them with who will be able to listen (the forum is a great place for that). If you decide to follow through on your suicidal thoughts, then I wish you a peaceful journey.

 

[CC123]

any path you choose takes strength

 

[TriggerHappy]

I guess he couldn't take it anymore... one day he just stop answering my messages. Now I'm completely alone, and maybe that's what I deserve for being so weak.

Nah, I'm telling you wot my mom used to tell me when I got ghosted. "don't think he was a real friend".
Trust me I've lost many in my life, through circumstance and my behavior so I understand, it hurts.
but if a friendship comes with conditions, and if shit can't be sorted out :: then maybe its better this way. Pretending to be ok when we not, not being ourselves (as ugly as that may be) & not asking for help is dangerous for peeps like us.
Friends r a rarity :: maybe the universe is making space for someone more worthy of your friendship...
Have faith.

 

[CC123]

it may very well be his loss and your gain, as kinda mean as that might sound

 

[newave3]

You're not weak. You're human. And it takes incredible resolve to contemplate death and continue walking towards it, and maybe even more resolve to reveal those feelings to loved ones despite knowing how they might react. I'm sorry you lost your friend this way. I can't say for sure since I don't know either of you, but I do not think he cut you off because he doesn't care for you. It isn't easy to talk to someone who is suicidal. If you recover, then I hope you can mend your friendship. If you continue to have suicidal thoughts, then I hope you can find someone to share them with who will be able to listen (the forum is a great place for that). If you decide to follow through on your suicidal thoughts, then I wish you a peaceful journey.

Nicely put......Ditto.

 

[ClownMe]

Im sorry this happened to you @edukali im here if you ever want to talk to me, i know how much it sucks to lose a friend, ive lost many for many different reasons.

 

[Insomniac]

I understand your friend, if he is trying to have a good life, then severing ties with you is the best thing to do for himself. On the shorter run at least.

However, life is a bitch. I recently learned that my mom abandoned my aunt in her hardest times (my aunt had depression, money issues, anxiety, issues with addiction, si gle mother etc) when they were around my age.

My mom had a more conventionally successful life but ended up with suicidal children and a closet alcoholic husband.

so yeah, he can erase you and move on but life will punish him or someone close to him for that. Call it karma or whatever.

The truth is, humans only started "evolving" when they started caring and searching solutions for the weak.

If some people are affected with an illness and you just ignore them, you won't know what to do when this illness gets to you. You'll be unprepared.

That's why more and more people are suffering with anxiety, depression etc today. Because older generations abandoned those who had those things.

 

[noxin]

When shit went south for me, I lost my so-called friends too. I don't know if they or your friend were ever really proper friends to us.

 

[Mashedout]

I once cut off my long time friend when he told me about his suicide attempt and long time depression which I was aware of. Not because I didn't care, but because I was going through the same troubles. I didn't want to bring him down with me because I had nothing positive to say or offer, I could only make his life worse as I couldn't wear a fake smile anymore. Plus he had a full supportive family so it really wasn't necessary for me to be around.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have been through this. It can be painful to lose those we consider as friends. In general, I do not like people very much as they can let us down and that is why I choose to stay away. Many non suicidal people distance themselves from those who are suicidal as they cannot understand what they are going through and cannot relate. I wish you the best.

 

[aludnelac]

i'm sorry that happened to you.. it does often feel like you start to become too much trouble or sadness for friends or those in your life to deal with anymore.. it's really upsetting and feels like they abandoned you.. sorry you've been pushed to this point of loneliness just because you're feeling intense despair, it's not fair, but people are often more grand gestures of verbal/written help and friendship than their actions show.. struggling to live life isn't your fault tho so don't feel like you did something wrong just by being sad all the time.. you can't really control that stuff.. :c