Venting I lost everything

[IchijouRirika]

I've lost the site I used to meet new people at, I've lost the person I loved the most, I've lost friends I've known for years, I've lost my friend group, I've lost any will to do anything at all.
I've never felt so miserable like this before, if only I could find a way to get the antiemetics easily and finally put an end on this 23 year long suffering. It's just sad that, I just always knew this was how things were going to end.

 

[Imprisoned]

I often feel like I have nothing in life, which is true. I lost my ability to be happy ever since my childhood ended. And then later I developed OCD and chronic fatigue and lost any ability to do anything meaningful. I fucking hate my life.

It's just sad that, I just always knew this was how things were going to end.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really dreadful what you are going through, existence is just too cruel. I hope that you eventually find peace from all the suffering.

 

[DesperateOne]

I've lost the site I used to meet new people at, I've lost the person I loved the most, I've lost friends I've known for years, I've lost my friend group, I've lost any will to do anything at all.
I've never felt so miserable like this before, if only I could find a way to get the antiemetics easily and finally put an end on this 23 year long suffering. It's just sad that, I just always knew this was how things were going to end.

Don't take this the wrong way, but at least you had those experiences that you can now cherish and forever remember. I know users here will probably respond to me in a bad way, but a lot of people don't or will never have those moments, so you are very fortunate in that regard. For example I never had a person that I could love and never really had a tight friend group. I had some people around me, but my brain is so fried that I cannot connect with people and feel love.

At least give it a few months to think this through and maybe even jump on meds if time doesn't heal your wounds. I feel like CTBing on an impulse almost always ends in regret...