sillyprincessmeow
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- Jul 21, 2022
- 59
I probably sound so idiotic and like an attention whore to you guys oh my God, I'm so disappointed in myself for ever sharing any of the thoughts that I do with the world, I'm just such an evil person.
I just wanna be clear and let everybody know that I am not going to take my life simply because of one man.
I'm taking my life because from a very young age I have never experienced happiness or what being healthy is. I have never been able to eat enough or sleep enough or be comfortable enough or be able to live enough. I have never been able to have a conversation with my family and open up about the things that I feel, I've never been heard, since I was a little girl, and my mother would always tell me that I did not have What it takes to be depressed, I know she was going through a lot though.
I come from abusers, abused, drug addicts, alcoholics, mentally ill, psychos, my bloodline is nothing to be proud of, and as depressing as it is to say that, because I truly do love my family, there is nothing in this world that is worth staying for.
Like I replied to somebody, I've said this many times, the only way that I would ever stay alive is if I got exactly what I wanted because all I've done is stop people from hurting themselves and giving people the last few crumbs of myself that I have left.
My cup has never been poured into and I do not expect that to change soon. All I do is go out to clubs and fuck people, but I'm not a whore like that, I only did that one time and the dude was pretty chill so he was like a friend with benefits. But he ghosted me so I guess that doesn't matter.
But see, I am just genuinely a terrible person I've cheated on my ex? My boyfriend? I don't even know what it is anymore, more times than he probably has me, actually no I take that back, but I just did it a lot worse than he did.
I'm just so evil and childish and I will never be able to put myself in a position where I'll be happy so that's why I wanna take my life.
I don't wanna take my life because of someone, I wanna take my life because my life has never been good enough, I feel so bad for the little girl trapped inside of me. Nobody loved her and neither can I.
I just wanna be clear and let everybody know that I am not going to take my life simply because of one man.
I'm taking my life because from a very young age I have never experienced happiness or what being healthy is. I have never been able to eat enough or sleep enough or be comfortable enough or be able to live enough. I have never been able to have a conversation with my family and open up about the things that I feel, I've never been heard, since I was a little girl, and my mother would always tell me that I did not have What it takes to be depressed, I know she was going through a lot though.
I come from abusers, abused, drug addicts, alcoholics, mentally ill, psychos, my bloodline is nothing to be proud of, and as depressing as it is to say that, because I truly do love my family, there is nothing in this world that is worth staying for.
Like I replied to somebody, I've said this many times, the only way that I would ever stay alive is if I got exactly what I wanted because all I've done is stop people from hurting themselves and giving people the last few crumbs of myself that I have left.
My cup has never been poured into and I do not expect that to change soon. All I do is go out to clubs and fuck people, but I'm not a whore like that, I only did that one time and the dude was pretty chill so he was like a friend with benefits. But he ghosted me so I guess that doesn't matter.
But see, I am just genuinely a terrible person I've cheated on my ex? My boyfriend? I don't even know what it is anymore, more times than he probably has me, actually no I take that back, but I just did it a lot worse than he did.
I'm just so evil and childish and I will never be able to put myself in a position where I'll be happy so that's why I wanna take my life.
I don't wanna take my life because of someone, I wanna take my life because my life has never been good enough, I feel so bad for the little girl trapped inside of me. Nobody loved her and neither can I.
