I keep seeing FB posts about local suicides, I'd hate it to happen to me

[Exhausted546]

Tbf most of these posts were about public suicides. Too many nosy people in the comments.

I was caught 2 days ago entering some dense woods then confronted about it about 40 mins later by some complete stranger who saw me and wanted to know what I was doing. All I could think of during the interaction is that he'd leave comments if they ever found my body in the woods nearby. I know I'm not supposed to care but this along with other problems are starting to discourage me from doing it outside.
A motel would be preferable at this stage

 

[tonicer]

A while ago i thought about jumping into an active volcano but i am too poor for that.

 

[Exhausted546]

A while ago i thought about jumping into an active volcano but i am too poor for that.

That's an horrifying torturous death. Don't do that.
My bank account is in the negative with credit cards maxed out.
Would be difficult to currently get a motel personally

 

[DeadnDusted]

A while ago i thought about jumping into an active volcano but i am too poor for that.

Why would you wanna do that

 

[behindtheveil]

If only there was a simple pill that could end this torturous existence!

 

[iwashere]

this is lowk something that made me reconsider if i'm gonna shoot myself in an empty parking lot at night. like, the entire "missing person" post in the neighborhood facebook page to the police department publishing their press release stating they found a "22 year old female with a gunshot wound to the head, no criminal involvement indicated" in said parking lot, THEN all the middle aged moms gossiping in the comment sections, AND THEN asking all their kids if they knew who the person that shot themselves at the lake was??? it's too much!!! ppl r so damn nosy lololol

 

[tonicer]

That's an horrifying torturous death. Don't do that.

Sure? I thought it would be over in seconds.

Why would you wanna do that

To die quickly and not leave a mess.

 

[Exhausted546]

Sure? I thought it would be over in seconds.

To die quickly and not leave a mess.

That won't be the case , I remember hearing about it when watching a video of horrifying deaths

this is lowk something that made me reconsider if i'm gonna shoot myself in an empty parking lot at night. like, the entire "missing person" post in the neighborhood facebook page to the police department publishing their press release stating they found a "22 year old female with a gunshot wound to the head, no criminal involvement indicated" in said parking lot, THEN all the middle aged moms gossiping in the comment sections, AND THEN asking all their kids if they knew who the person that shot themselves at the lake was??? it's too much!!! ppl r so damn nosy lololol

Same , I swear it disgusts me to think about. I'm extremely low-key, like leave me the fuck alone please. A motel would make it easier, don't have the money to book one currently

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

If only there was a simple pill that could end this torturous existence!

there are but they made these all into crimes . a Morphine or fentanly pill is painless and can be made cheaplly .

Also pet Nembutal is fairly inexpensive . so Nembutal is painless and guaranteed .and inexpensive

sarco suicide pod painless gauranteed

co clyinders painles

paying someone to shoot me painless guaranted

cyanide capsules

they mads all these and more into crimes.

imo most of these would cost $100 or less if they were legal, which is less than groceries for a week.

paying someone to shoot me might cost a few hundred if it were legal .

 

[tonicer]

That won't be the case , I remember hearing about it when watching a video of horrifying deaths

Thanks for the information. It was a thought when i was younger anyway.

 

[Exhausted546]

Thanks for the information. It was a thought when i was younger anyway.

I think fire will eventually stop hurting as the pain receptors are damaged but lava won't. Something along the lines I can't recall properly

 

[iwashere]

That won't be the case , I remember hearing about it when watching a video of horrifying deaths

Same , I swear it disgusts me to think about. I'm extremely low-key, like leave me the fuck alone please. A motel would make it easier, don't have the money to book one currently

i was thinking of doing the whole hotel room thing too, but came upon the same problem. nosy people asking the neighborhood facebook page "what's with all the police activity on 27th st ?" then you have the people who deadass sit and listen to the police scanners all day replying 3 seconds later "Gunshots heard in one of the motels. Sending all units. Prayers " like omggg u guys are all sick asf

 

[Exhausted546]

i was thinking of doing the whole hotel room thing too, but came upon the same problem. nosy people asking the neighborhood facebook page "what's with all the police activity on 27th st ?" then you have the people who deadass sit and listen to the police scanners all day replying 3 seconds later "Gunshots heard in one of the motels. Sending all units. Prayers " like omggg u guys are all sick asf

Hotel/motel room is much better imo

Worse would be suicide at home if you live in a house owned by family.
1.Traumatizes them.
2.Their home won't feel like a safe space anymore
3. It'll devalue the house if they decide to sell it
4.Nosy ass fucking neighbors won't STFU and gossip endlessly your death. They'll still bring it up each time a new person will move in,even 15 years later.

Thought about doing it outside for these reasons but it doesn't eliminate the gossiping. Some sick fucks might even take pictures of your corpse.

I saw a Facebook post where they were discussing and digging for the details about the person's life and the circumstances that led them to ctb

I feel like a motel is the best way to avoid all of these issues. People will gossip less from a death in a motel than a death in a park or in the woods or at their neighbor's house

 

[hello707]

One of my biggest fears is being used for social media post. I'd hate to be just another unnamed person on the news or a statistic. I'd also really hate it if my "friends" use my death as an excuse to post or make shit for clicks. The disingenuity disgusts me.

 

[violetforever]

this entire thread is what goes through my mind when i think about when i ctb. i just want the least attention possible drawn to my suicide. i dread thinking about how my family and strangers might post and discuss about it online. how it might be in the news. how photos of me and my name connected to the story might circulate. thats the fucking worst. i just want my suicide to be treated as if it were nothing and let me be forgotten forever like i was never here.

 

[Exhausted546]

this entire thread is what goes through my mind when i think about when i ctb. i just want the least attention possible drawn to my suicide. i dread thinking about how my family and strangers might post and discuss about it online. how it might be in the news. how photos of me and my name connected to the story might circulate. thats the fucking worst. i just want my suicide to be treated as if it were nothing and let me be forgotten forever like i was never here.

My family caused my death honestly, they'll just twist it for their narrative.
I'll hate anyone that dares to post pictures reminiscing me and announcing the to world that I offed myself,being like "talk to a close ones,don't suffer in silence"

I don't want my picture or name to be anywhere, I even hate the fact that I'd have a funeral/memorial. I'm really low-key and hate attention, especially when my life became so God damn miserable. Stop shining a light on it for the whole world to see

I get you.
I don't have motel money so I'll have to settle for a tree in the middle of the night. Somewhere I won't be found until I'm properly deceased. It's not easy to find the right balance.

Woods would be ideal but they're extra creepy to navigate at night while being feasted on by countless mosquitos, accidentally walking into the swamps (at least woods next to my place) ,finding the right tree. Even then I hope I get found before there'd be a missing person post go on social medias.

 

[violetforever]

My family caused my death honestly, they'll just twist it for their narrative.

i want to throw up thinking about how my facebook addicted mother will probably take any opportunity she can to get some attention through likes or comments on posts about me after i ctb. i guess i already have to live with her trying to convince everyone shes a good mother and playing the victim so whats the difference if im dead? i guess abusers always win in the end.

I don't want my picture or name to be anywhere, I even hate the fact that I'd have a funeral/memorial. I'm really low-key and hate attention, especially when my life became so God damn miserable. Stop shining a light on it for the whole world to see

same to everything. it makes me really uncomfortable to think about the stupid gossip.

I get you.
I don't have motel money so I'll have to settle for a tree in the middle of the night. Somewhere I won't be found until I'm properly deceased. It's not easy to find the right balance.

Woods would be ideal but they're extra creepy to navigate at night while being feasted on by countless mosquitos, accidentally walking into the swamps (at least woods next to my place) ,finding the right tree. Even then I hope I get found before there'd be a missing person post go on social medias

i never really considered location aside from the fact that i dont want to do it at home as long as i live with family. i thought train but now i dont know with it being so public. what method did you have planned for a motel?

 

[Exhausted546]

i want to throw up thinking about how my facebook addicted mother will probably take any opportunity she can to get some attention through likes or comments on posts about me after i ctb. i guess i already have to live with her trying to convince everyone shes a good mother and playing the victim so whats the difference if im dead? i guess abusers always win in the end.

same to everything. it makes me really uncomfortable to think about the stupid gossip.

i never really considered location aside from the fact that i dont want to do it at home as long as i live with family. i thought train but now i dont know with it being so public. what method did you have planned for a motel?

A door can be used for hanging successfully. I tried it at home with my full body weight. I'd use the bathroom door and do a full hanging suspension there

I was in a motel in April but only supportive relative paid for it, I would be spitting in his face if I had decided to ctb then cause it would play on his conscience for having provided me with the motel,I can't have that happen.

Got a job interview next week. I could make just enough to afford a motel

OR

Hang myself somewhere that doesn't get THAT much traffic. Before I realized the neighborhood park would bring forth endless gossiping about my death, I examined all the trees there. I won't anymore,it's too public.

 

[violetforever]

A door can be used for hanging successfully. I tried it at home with my full body weight. I'd use the bathroom door and do a full hanging suspension there

I was in a motel in April but only supportive relative paid for it, I would be spitting in his face if I had decided to ctb then cause it would play on his conscience for having provided me with the motel,I can't have that happen.

Got a job interview next week. I could make just enough to afford a motel

OR

Hang myself somewhere that doesn't get THAT much traffic. Before I realized the neighborhood park would bring forth endless gossiping about my death, I examined all the trees there. I won't anymore,it's too public.

good luck with the job interview. i really hope you can ctb in a preferable situation

 

[Exhausted546]

good luck with the job interview. i really hope you can ctb in a preferable situation

Thank you, what's your method and where?

 

[violetforever]

Thank you, what's your method and where?

ive been so undecided about it. im back in a place of planning. i think i need to hold off until im away from family. i just hate the thought of them being so involved in it. i considered ctb with SN in a car when i get one but i dont know.

 

[Exhausted546]

ive been so undecided about it. im back in a place of planning. i think i need to hold off until im away from family. i just hate the thought of them being so involved in it. i considered ctb with SN in a car when i get one but i dont know.

I just stumbled on this nightmare scenario, let's hope this doesn't happen to any of us

 

[violetforever]

I just stumbled on this nightmare scenario, let's hope this doesn't happen to any of us

its so invasive. we really will just be some material for the news outlets. i hate this world so much.

 

[iguazo falls]

this is lowk something that made me reconsider if i'm gonna shoot myself in an empty parking lot at night. like, the entire "missing person" post in the neighborhood facebook page to the police department publishing their press release stating they found a "22 year old female with a gunshot wound to the head, no criminal involvement indicated" in said parking lot, THEN all the middle aged moms gossiping in the comment sections, AND THEN asking all their kids if they knew who the person that shot themselves at the lake was??? it's too much!!! ppl r so damn nosy lololol

fuck bro same like if im dead im dead but the last thing anyone around me grieving needs is a bunch of bots, slopped out boomers, and psyop accounts saying some bullshit. my family will disrespect me enough with their own posts about me. i know i cant control the future but it does bother me a fair bit, especially thinking about people in my same situation and demographic who want to ctb and seeing awful comments from ppl who hate folks like them.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I hope everyone knows I killed myself. I even want my obituary to say so. I hope its on the news and goes viral. The reason is I suffer from severe mental illnesses. I hate the stigma and any awareness I can create may save a life, even though I couldn't save my own. We need to be allowed to talk about suicidal feelings without being locked up. This the only place where I can freely talk about it without being dismissed or banned.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

When I had a failed attempt after the police and ambulance left, there were nosy neighbors who never interacted with anyone in the house otherwise coming over to gossip about it. They made it clear by their tone that was their intention. It was completely humiliating, and further knocked down my trust in people overall, knowing that one of the most upsetting events of my life was just a spectacle to them.

There's a really annoying influencer guy right now in Japan who goes around to specific places where people obviously have ctb or attempted, and posts videos of how creepy the sight feels to him. I don't mean the general area either, as Aokigahara forest is a vast place and many tourists and hikers go there every day for other reasons. I am talking about specific tents clustered together where people have obviously died or contemplated taking their lives there. All reduced to a spectacle for public entertainment. What the fuck

 

[Exhausted546]

When I had a failed attempt after the police and ambulance left, there were nosy neighbors who never interacted with anyone in the house otherwise coming over to gossip about it. They made it clear by their tone that was their intention. It was completely humiliating, and further knocked down my trust in people overall, knowing that one of the most upsetting events of my life was just a spectacle to them.

There's a really annoying influencer guy right now in Japan who goes around to specific places where people obviously have ctb or attempted, and posts videos of how creepy the sight feels to him. I don't mean the general area either, as Aokigahara forest is a vast place and many tourists and hikers go there every day for other reasons. I am talking about specific tents clustered together where people have obviously died or contemplated taking their lives there. All reduced to a spectacle for public entertainment. What the fuck

Im so sorry you went through that. This is such a fucking nightmare. It's traumatizing in itself

 

[Exhausted546]

I think I need to buy a ladder, I'm not confident on my climbing skills at all