Venting i just wish i didnt like them

[emptymiku]

i like my best friend. i hate that so much. i'm "demiromantic" meaning i pretty much only get crushes on people that are already my friends, so there's never a chance for me to tell them about it without risking them not being my friend anymore.

i want to say ive already accepted that i probably wont ever find someone, but it breaks me every time. i wish they felt the same way, but i don't even deserve them in the first place. i just wish i couldn't feel these feelings anymore. but i know closing myself off from having any friends would just make me even more miserable ...

i really hate this.

 

[enso]

i like my best friend. i hate that so much. i'm "demiromantic" meaning i pretty much only get crushes on people that are already my friends, so there's never a chance for me to tell them about it without risking them not being my friend anymore.

i want to say ive already accepted that i probably wont ever find someone, but it breaks me every time. i wish they felt the same way, but i don't even deserve them in the first place. i just wish i couldn't feel these feelings anymore. but i know closing myself off from having any friends would just make me even more miserable ...

i really hate this.

Hii!

You can try to spend more time with that particular person. If your special one does like physical contact, you can just try to hug him/her more, maybe something like that?

As for risks, a lot of things come with a risk. If you continue to have a friendship with that person and nothing changes, how you will feel about it? And if that friend will start relationship with someone else? And how will you feel if you confess your feelings and it will not be mutual? How do these feelings differ from each other?

 

[emptymiku]

Hii!

You can try to spend more time with that particular person. If your special one does like physical contact, you can just try to hug him/her more, maybe something like that?

As for risks, a lot of things come with a risk. If you continue to have a friendship with that person and nothing changes, how you will feel about it? And if that friend will start relationship with someone else? And how will you feel if you confess your feelings and it will not be mutual? How do these feelings differ from each other?

they're an online friend but ive been trying to meet up with them, among others.

if they started a relationship with someone else i think i'd try not to let it bother me but just end up disappearing for a few days. i don't think i could handle it. and i wouldn't confess unless they did first, i can't risk anything like that.