I just want to stop thinking

[cait_sith]

The only thing I want is to stop thinking and stop perceiving things, that's what everything boils down to to, I want my brain to stop attaining stimulus and information, I want neurons to stop working, I don't want memories coming and going, even they are good, and I want thoughts to stop permanently. I don't want to work through my thoughts or try to replace them or train my thoughts or whatever I just and only want to stop thinking, that's my only wish. That's what it all boils down to and there's nothing else I want.

 

[humanexperiment]

I understand. But why don't you want good thoughts ?

 

[LunarEc]

The only thing I want is to stop thinking and stop perceiving things, that's what everything boils down to to, I want my brain to stop attaining stimulus and information, I want neurons to stop working, I don't want memories coming and going, even they are good, and I want thoughts to stop permanently. I don't want to work through my thoughts or try to replace them or train my thoughts or whatever I just and only want to stop thinking, that's my only wish. That's what it all boils down to and there's nothing else I want.

I don't know if you ever experienced it but look more into dissociation. I've experienced it a couple times, it felt like nothing. Fuck I barely remember things whenever it happens. My vision goes blurry, my brain stops functioning, I am no longer thinking, I start to move just walk and then I just go back and fall asleep. It felt surreal. It's hard to trigger but for me a lot of things occur daily that can trigger it. The moment you get into it everything stops. Like as if you're in a dream. I think ketamine is probably the closest drug that can mimic what I felt.

 

[DivineSpark]

Me, I just want to think logically. Not swayed by suicidal self destructive emotions.