here_for_now
is this by design?
- Jan 27, 2025
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i hate my life, and i hate living. I am so fucking depressed it's unreal. Im only staying alive becasue i want to spare the grief of suicide to my best friend and brother and for my mothers sake but at what cost? A depression that is choking me alive? I feel so fucking sad all day long. I just wish i could die. Im trying to strengthen my faith in god again but it's so hard i feel so depressed. I've been suicidal since age 9 and I'm 20 now. When is it going to get better? Im just so fucking sad i hate myself so much i hate myself. I wish i could be a better son a better brother a better grandson but I'm not. Im just a dude that used to abuse drugs and puts my family through bullshit. I just feel so much regret and guilt whenever I'm alone with my thoughts to think about my life. I feel so depressed.
