Venting I just want it over

[cookiencream]

There's no 100% guarantee for suicide and even attempting can make my life so so much worse. I wish I could just hire someone to make sure I'm dead. I'm putting my all into full suspension hanging. Tomorrow I'll try to get a better rope once more and I've already started scouting anchor points. There's no forests within walking distance unless I treck super far. Which would be dangerous in it of itself for me. My balcony has a perfect anchor point but there's the risk of being found and revived....can someone tell me what exactly is life like with severe brain damage

 

[Quietist]

can someone tell me what exactly is life like with severe brain damage

I suspect it's horrific.

You could try to put a DNR note on your chest (Do Not Resuscitate).

 

[cookiencream]

I suspect it's horrific.

You could try to put a DNR note on your chest (Do Not Resuscitate).

Like anyone would listen. Because I'm suicidal I'm apparently too deranged to know I dont want to live as a damn vegetable. Again, at some point after suspension it should be considered cruel to resuscitate a person.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I also just wish to be gone, all I wish for is to be permanently free from this torturous and futile existence I never would had chosen, it's so horrific to me how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I see so much cruelty in how the option to peacefully cease existing that is guaranteed is denied, I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.