heroine
addicted to love š
- Feb 4, 2025
- 51
yknow im considering attempting suicide just for funsies, if it works it works, if it fails it fails. I'm so tired of being so emotionally numb!!! I want to do partial hanging and feel the pressure on my head and get so scared, I want to overdose and feel terrible and upset and vomit, I want to go to the hospital and recover amd have people visit me and give me gifts to make me happy.
I was going to say I'm so sad, but I'm not sad at all. I can't feel sad often at all. and I can't feel happy or angry and if I do its extremely muffled out or the rare times it's not it's extremely short lived. I can't take it anymore. I just wanna feel again. even through all this I constantly have awful thoughts and "feel" negatively so I can't be blissfully numb. I want to be human.
I was going to say I'm so sad, but I'm not sad at all. I can't feel sad often at all. and I can't feel happy or angry and if I do its extremely muffled out or the rare times it's not it's extremely short lived. I can't take it anymore. I just wanna feel again. even through all this I constantly have awful thoughts and "feel" negatively so I can't be blissfully numb. I want to be human.
