Venting I just remembered i have therapy later today

[Leonard_Bangley39]

i got a referral for therapy after i cut myself too deep and had to go to the er. honestly I'm feeling really pessimistic about all this. last time i tried therapy, it didn't do shit and i stopped after only 2 sessions because i didn't want to pay so much.

im already upset about getting a $1500 medical bill for an er visit and 3 stitches, i don't need even more financial strains to just give me even more reason to ctb. that's the biggest problem with mental health in this country. they never fix anything. mode often than not they just make things worse and give you more reasons to end it. all they do is hold you down so you can't do it in the moment.

not even sure if I'm gonna bother going to my appointment. i work night shifts and take the bus everywhere, i don't wanna have to stay up super late and spend hours waiting for busses just to waste my time.

 

[kunikuzushi]

therapy can be really useless or make things worse. it really depends on if the therapist cares to actually help you or just wants the money. sometimes you can learn useful skills to help cope with horrible feelings. that's all ive gotten from therapy and it's really not much. i hope whatever you choose works out well. i hope you don't feel any guilt if you choose not to go, and i hope it goes well if you go.