What is wrong with me? I ruined something so perfect for me. I fucked it up completely and now my life is ruined. How could I do this to myself??? Everything was going well and then I let life stress me out and took it out on her. Then she left me and it put me in an even worse headspace and I fucked it up even further beyond repair. I hate myself for this. I fucked up everything when she was EVERYTHING I ever wanted. Oh my god I can't believe this. I can't believe how stupid I am. We were about to hang out the same night I fucking ruined everything and now it's all in the past and will never come back. I can't believe myself.
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pleroman
Arcanist
- Feb 22, 2024
- 466
I fucked it all up to. Not exactly the same way but I did it myself. Destroyed my life.
Been nearly three years and it gets worse every day.
Just need the courage. At least she will be filled with joy to know I am eradicated.
pleroman
Arcanist
- Feb 22, 2024
- 466
Well it's just the added layer of knowing there is no villain but me. I did the bad things. I took love for granted. And I deserve the bad outcome.Similar threads
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