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Liebestod

Liebestod

Death is near
Mar 15, 2025
689
I was so close to doing it but I stopped, I have to wait a year, I don't know what I'm expecting to gain by not doing it. I have a loaded gun and everything.
 
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traingirl

traingirl

I was good. I was really good.
Oct 7, 2025
345
Is there something keeping u here? It's ok to not be ready.
 
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vig919

The difficulty factor is disappointing
Oct 13, 2025
72
I slept with my gun under my pillow just so I could ctb. Several times woke up and did the same as you. If your not ready your just not ready.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
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It's totally alright not to be ready. ctb is not something to be forced, it should be done only when things became really unbearable and suffering surpasses the coping abilities of a person.
 
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Owlers

Owlers

Member
Oct 27, 2025
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What stopped you this time, if you don't mind me asking?
 
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MatiSendiri

The world is still unfair to me
Jun 8, 2025
174
Man your profile picture brings back trauma in my mind 💀

BTW, it's fine to be not ready for ctb. It's not cowardice, its just how your condition goes. I hope you can get better right now.
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Death is near
Mar 15, 2025
689
Man your profile picture brings back trauma in my mind 💀

BTW, it's fine to be not ready for ctb. It's not cowardice, it's just how your condition goes. I hope you can get better right now.
I was pointing my rifle exactly like how Gleb was in my profile picture. #1444
 

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