I just get so down

[prototypian]

I don't understand how so many things make me down. I feel like I can't see the world in a nice way anymore. And I feel like it's futile to try to do that. The whole world appears to be seated in this blob of pathetic gunk. It's like the worst things in life exist and we keep society and standards just barely above the worst of things. As long as there are barely enough consumers to keep buying stuff and asking as the world doesn't completely let everyone starve things are where they will stay forever. As an individual you don't matter and never will. Your value doesn't matter beyond what you produce for whatever thjng you work for. If you continue to seem to produce and you consume then you are unlikely to die of starvation or the elements but even if you did it wouldn't matter. If you fall below the level of productivity or you stop consuming your value falls enormously.


I'm tired of the mess and the unfeeling world and life as a cog