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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
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He looks so calm and so sad at the same time. You can see it in his eyes that he was a tormented man.
 
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ifihadnever

Student
Sep 20, 2025
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Yeah, I saw this video. His discussion was so very made. A to tie the knots blindly at the back too.....
 
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Terrible_Life

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Jul 3, 2025
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He looks so calm and so sad at the same time. You can see it in his eyes that he was a tormented man.
Yes absolutely! When I hang myself I wanna do it without any fear the way he did it.
I find it so surreal in one moment he can still move and do things and once he hangs there he get unconscious and this is it just as if you'd switch off your tv.
 
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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

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Nov 6, 2025
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Kinda sad when his son finds him at the end though.

Does anyone have any videos of successful ligature strangulation?
 
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Terrible_Life

Specialist
Jul 3, 2025
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Kinda sad when his son finds him at the end though.

Does anyone have any videos of successful ligature strangulation?
Yes that was very sad , painful to watch
Its the big dilemma of suicide unfortunately 😥😫
 
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continuating

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Nov 18, 2025
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same i hope i'd be as determined as him but i also wouldn't want family and/or friends discovering a lifeless body that was once their friend
hope that his son would be able to move on
 
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deadmanwalking1990

deadmanwalking1990

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Nov 16, 2025
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How did he lose conciousnes so quickly
 
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darksouls

darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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luckily I dont have children, the crying son broke my heart, what a sad world
 
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DeadManLiving

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Sep 9, 2022
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He looks so calm and so sad at the same time. You can see it in his eyes that he was a tormented man.
Haven't seen the clip but ppl have been saying about this recently. Unable to snap out of a 1,000 yard stare / gaze
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
426
luckily I dont have children, the crying son broke my heart, what a sad world
I never watched this video to the end and now I did. I wish I haven't seen the ending. The ending broke my heart 💔
 
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returner

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Sep 18, 2025
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How my family would react is my biggest fear honestly, one of the only things keeping me here, I would destroy so many people but it's really not enough to go through this much more. Really don't want a family member finding me like this but don't think there's much I can do about that really, someone's going to have to.
 
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android

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Nov 9, 2025
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I never watched this video to the end and now I did. I wish I haven't seen the ending. The ending broke my heart 💔
It hurt me a bit too. I really believe that if you bring suffering into the world then you have to stay until they're gone. Parents cannot kill themselves in good conscience and be forgiven. I know it's a cruel line of thinking, but fuck all breeders.
same i hope i'd be as determined as him but i also wouldn't want family and/or friends discovering a lifeless body that was once their friend
hope that his son would be able to move on
I am looking for methods that appear accidental. For example jumping off a canyon after ingesting some chemicals.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
426
It hurt me a bit too. I really believe that if you bring suffering into the world then you have to stay until they're gone. Parents cannot kill themselves in good conscience and be forgiven. I know it's a cruel line of thinking, but fuck all breeders.

I am looking for methods that appear accidental. For example jumping off a canyon after ingesting some chemicals.
It's a good thing I never made any kids. Even when I was just a teen I knew that I will ctb one day. This was the main reason why I never made any offsprings. I didn't want my early death to devastate them, also I didn't want them to inherit my terrible mental illnesses.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
397
It's a good thing I never made any kids. Even when I was just a teen I knew that I will ctb one day. This was the main reason why I never made any offsprings. I didn't want my early death to devastate them, also I didn't want them to inherit my terrible mental illnesses.
Yeah, I changed my mind later when I became a "based" psycho but once in a deep depression I vowed never to have kids. Luckily I'm too much of a loser for it anyway. I'm worried about pain for parents and brothers. It will suck, but come on, what do you expect out of a mentally ill 36yo manchild?
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
426
Yeah, I changed my mind later when I became a "based" psycho but once in a deep depression I vowed never to have kids. Luckily I'm too much of a loser for it anyway. I'm worried about pain for parents and brothers. It will suck, but come on, what do you expect out of a mentally ill 36yo manchild?
Some people are just not meant to die of natural causes (non-suicidal death) We are one of those people. Life has never worked out for us.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
397
@Macedonian1987 Yeah you get it (and seem about my age). In a time with harsher selection pressure we'd just starve or get killed. This idea that everyone has to be carried by pills and therapy or family or welfare to 80+ years is nuts. Some of us just don't work out!
 
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android

Member
Nov 9, 2025
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It's a good thing I never made any kids. Even when I was just a teen I knew that I will ctb one day. This was the main reason why I never made any offsprings. I didn't want my early death to devastate them, also I didn't want them to inherit my terrible mental illnesses.
Your kids would never be free of suffering
Suffering is a permanent state of existence
It is universal and affects all
Some are more able to sense it than others

I imagine it like this:
In an alternate universe, all of us are resting on a bed made of a millions sharp nails

Some people lying on their backs, others on their stomachs, others on their sides

We are all suffering in this scenario from excruciating pain. No matter how we're turned or what posture we're sleeping in, this is extreme, absurd pain

Even the people on their stomachs cannot see the bed of nails because their eyes have been gauged out from resting on it (for example poor people who keep breeding incessantly)

There are some people who do see the bed though. Maybe they feel the pain in their backs from the nails, or because they're a little more sensitive. Maybe they are restless and turn around a lot in the bed. Those people see their situation, their universal suffering. I think that's what suicidal people are (or at least those that aren't impulsively suicidal)
 
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