I hope this is a goodbye

[motel rooms]

Boy speaks, "Follow me."
Through the old city streets
you follow him, past the tents,
through the fog and excrement.

Smile at him. He smiles back,
leads you past wooden shacks
and open gutters. Don't fall in.
Put your feet in his footprints.

Bullet holes in the walls
form a map of the world.
Giant Door with a key.
Boy turns, "Follow me."

Young boy, in your face
every loss I can trace.
I follow you, I enter in.
Put my feet in your footprints.

-- PJ Harvey

Please don't PM me. I'm sorry I wasn't able to be more helpful to those of you who reached out to me. I hope you find peace too.

 

[Makko]

Have fun.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[gus.nixon]

You have excellent taste in music. I hope you find the rest you seek

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

You're rational and funny. I am jealous you will fill your time with other things...and I hope if you do exit everything by your choice it goes as you planned.

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

Good bye as in you're leaving the site or has your ctb time come? Either way, I wish you the best and hope you find peace and / or recovery.


Edit: P.S. I really hate that your sexuality has been used to criticize / disparage you on this board. I don't think that's "playing" fair and I hope that's not the reason you are leaving.

 

[domedune]

Goodbye. I hope you find peace, whatever you do

 

[Huntfish34]

I think he means Ctb... But regardless,. I wish you the best in whatever may happen.

 

[Phosphophyllite]

I'm sorry life led you to this point. I wish you a painless departure and I hope you'll find what you're looking for.

 

[Fakereality]

You are an interesting and fun guy I always liked that you tried to spread happiness, around even when you were suffering from deep inside.
Wish you peace and relief in whatever path you choose.

 

[Quiet Desperation]

Your well reasoned posts here will be missed. I hope you find what you're looking for.

 

[Salvation_]

Have a safe journey, fellow traveler.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i wish you all the best. you seemed like a cool guy.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

@hotelbeneathground you are one of my favourite people here. Articulate, intelligent and witty. You once told me on one of my threads that you felt ashamed for coping using humour, but I always admired and slightly envied your quick-witted quips on here.

Although we never spoke directly, I will miss you. Your presence here was enormous and I will miss seeing your name and reading your banter and your insightful posts.

You have been through some of the worst suffering a child can endure for many years, at the hands of those who were supposed to love and protect you. My heart hurts for you. I wish I could give you a hug. You deserved far better than this.

I want you to know that if you choose to stay and ever need to talk, you can reach out anytime. Although I know I cannot alleviate the awful pain you contend with, I am happy to listen, to carry some of that pain with you.

There is no shame in changing your mind and postponing your plans. As I always say, death is not going anywhere. That is not intended to discourage you but rather assure you that whatever you decide is okay and that you are always welcome here.

If you proceed with your plans, I hope you find peace, with no more nightmares at night.

You once said: "Children like us know what no one knows - there are no words for the infinity of ghosts."

You deserve to rest, to be at peace. I hope you can never be haunted by the ghosts of your past again.

 

[Makko]

For those who didn't get the memo:

1. Decided to leave this forum by the end of the month.
2. Laughed at myself for believing any of you actually exist.
3. Slept like a dead baby.

 

[Deleted member 8579]

Go, bid the world, with all its trash, farewell!
And tell the earth it shall be all but dust:
These wicked wares, that worldlings buy and sell,
The moth will eat, or else the canker rust:
All flesh is grass, and to the grave it must.
This sink of sin is but the way to hell;
Leave it, I say, and bid the world farewell!

- Nicholas Breton

Alone on the shore in the pause of the night-time
I stand and I hear the long wind blow light;
I view the constellations, quietly burning;
I hear the wave fall in the hush of the night.

Long after I am dead, ended this bitter journey,
Many another whose heart holds no light
Shall your solemn sweetness hush, awe and comfort,
O my companions, Wind, Waters, Stars, and Night.

- Robert Nichols

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

For those who didn't get the memo:

Its probably for the best regardless. Can't blame him.

 

[BottomlessPit]

We never really interacted, but I enjoyed your presence and you'll be sorely missed.
I hope you find peace.

 

[less than]

I wish you all the best no matter which path you want to go. Perhaps you will find what you are looking for.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Wish you peace

 

[Midgardsorm]

I loved your posts.

A girl once told me I used jokes to hide the fact that I didn't knew what to say. You used to do jokes to cope with depression. We were actually somewhat the same in this matter.
I'm sorry for what led you to this. you deserve far better. I wish we could have interacted more.

When you spoke a bit about your pain, I could sense the how cruel this world were with a loving and intelligent person like you, just as this world seems to loves to do it.

Do know that if you decide to not go on with this, we will be always here for you and the only thing that it will change is that we will have the pleasure of you walking among us for one more time.
But if you do, I hope you find peace.

I guess the manliest and stronger of the stars are about to be formed. May you watch us from your rightful throne in the universe. May your light guide us from now on.

Oh, just don't laugh at my puny attempts to be a man, alright?

Safe travels friend. Your light will never dim.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I hope you find peace you desire

 

[Huntfish34]

R.I.P.

 

[Versailles]

Go, I hope you find peace, you are one of those people whose sense of humor and way of thinking were compatible with me, I hope everything goes well for you and I wish you the best in the world

Hugs!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry I missed you. Wishing you peace.

 

[EdibleGasMask]

Wishing you peace man.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I sincerely hope your departure from this forum brings about something better. You deserve an escape from all this misery life has put you through, both in the past and the present. You're a real cool cat, funny, witty, and articulate as hell to boot. Won't be the same without ya.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Hope you find everything you hoped for. Life or death.

 

[Lost Magic]

damn, another one bites the dust. Saying that most of us want out of this world as well. Why on earth would we be on this forum otherwise. I hope I find the courage to catch the bus when the time comes. Good journey to you man!

 

[rey]

damn bro you were always a kind person to everyone on this forum. i hope we can meet on the other side now i think it is my turn.

i hope you will find pure peace rest well.