I hope I go through with it soon

[Josuyo]

It's clear no one cares


If I say I want to die or almost died people dismiss me or brush me off.

I've desperately tried to connect with people. Hiding how much I want to kill myself how much I wished I was dead.

I'm trying to live a normal life but nothing makes me happy anymore.

I'm so empty. I made all the wrong decisions. I ruined my life. Other people ruined my life.

I never had a chance and I don't want to live miserably a second longer.

I hope I can go through with this soon. I hope I can kill myself. I know I'm nothing. So I want to just be nothing and stop existing as a nobody.

 

[Chiisai]

Hearing someone say they are nothing or of no value is quite painful. I feel you. I dont know how much you're in pain but I hope the thought that others can feel your pain and that others wish you well and relief of your worries in whatever you choose console you. I wish you the best possible outcome and peace.

 

[LastFlowers]

Hearing someone say they are nothing or of no value is quite painful. I feel you. I dont know how much you're in pain but I hope the thought that others can feel your pain and that others wish you well and relief of your worries in whatever you choose console you. I wish you the best possible outcome and peace.

Yes, to suffer is one thing, but to suffer in silence and invisibility is another.
It's disturbing..the banal, shallow, and/or capricious ways in which we value and acknowledge one another, leaving so many who suffer behind in the shadows to be lost with nobody to hear their cries.

 

[Chiisai]

Yes, to suffer is one thing, but to suffer in silence and invisibility is another.
It's disturbing..the banal, shallow, and/or capricious ways in which we value and acknowledge one another, leaving so many who suffer behind in the shadows to be lost with nobody to hear their cries.

Well, I got betrayed by people who were close to me and made fun of my deeply shared traumas and secrets so I cannot bring myself to trust others now. Id rather leave with what little dignity I have left than to let myself fall into another chance of betrayal.

 

[LastFlowers]

Well, I got betrayed by people who were close to me and made fun of my deeply shared traumas and secrets so I cannot bring myself to trust others now. Id rather leave with what little dignity I have left than to let myself fall into another chance of betrayal.

I've had a similar experience, very sorry you had to go through that, and people wonder why we don't "reach out"..

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that it can be unbearable living a life you hate. I understand that it can be dreadful when everything is hopeless. I'm sorry you are going through this. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.