i hit beans finally!!!!

[3FailedAttemptss]

sooooo i was on a minecraft server with some other suiciders & cutters and uhhh i got a little inspired, i was already on some benzos and well i kept staring at my thigh owo… ive tried hitting beans many many times and it never worked, turns out its cause of my feather blades making things difficult for me. so this time i asked an uncensored LLM what i should do to make it work and it suggested pinching the skin on my inner thigh and using my feather blade like a saw. so i was just going ham and bananas like a maniac

it went smooth smooth smooth then suddenly all bumpy and lumpy???? like i hit a wall of wet tissue
and i couldn't see cause of the blood running everywhere and i was like TwT did i hit beans??? i did a few more cuts before hitting beans, just some 8mm-1cm gaping styros.

so now on top of all the other many many cuts i have i got four extra gaping styros and one actual bean cut (finally!!!!) so i slapped steristrips on the thighs and now my legs feel permanently wet and the bedsheets are gonna be ruined

i think i'm gonna layer towels sinxe the sheets are grey and i might do more before dinner but i camt promise i won't bleed through the band aids qwq

 

[sacrilegeofsouls]

Pal.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

...I...wow.

You might know this already, but there's harmless way to, well, self harm. I saw a thread about this on here some time ago.

Are you okay? Genuinely.

 

[dirkw83]

mmm.. this is a suicide forum, not an SH forum. I suspect most people aren't gonna be as cheerful about this as you maybe expect.

I definitely wouldn't recommend this, efforts like this can only get in the way of CTB later. What if you end up with nerve damage? Please don't do this.

 

[ZwartHartje]

What does "hitting beans" even mean? I've never heard of this term before, like apparently when you cut extra deeply? Sounds unpleasant, I hope you're ok.

 

[burninghill]

What does "hitting beans" even mean? I've never heard of this term before, like apparently when you cut extra deeply? Sounds unpleasant, I hope you're ok.

Beans is the fat in the body, when you cut into it, it looks yellow and lumpy like beans.

I agree with the other comment saying that people here might not be as cheerful as you anticipate, I was on a lot of forums that encouraged self harm and it made me addiction so much worse, I understand being happy to hit beans, I was too. I used to post my self harm publically on tumblr and X and carve requests into myself.

The trouble with self harm is that one milestone will never be enough, you'll want to go deeper and deeper, bigger and bigger. I've always hated those groups for self harm. They're so terrible. Plus you can get in big trouble for encouraging or aiding in self harm, at least in the UK.

Imagine someone in the group kills themselves or is seriously injured beyond repair? When outsiders see who was in their phone cheering them on, you're not gonna want that on your hands, no matter how good the community feels in the moment.

Most people are here to support others and spread love to one another, so the reaction you see from this post will likely not be the encouragement you might expect.

 

[Sims3losertrait]

Are we speaking madeofstyrofoam on the suicide website now? Idk about all that chief… For real though your uncensored LLM is fucking crazy for this I hate AI so much it's unreal because who even comes up with that shit. Thigh is not a good place to do that. Infection risk. Cutting that deep is fucking mid anyway the scars get really annoying and take way longer to heal.

This may sound really stupid, condescending, and/or triggering, but… At least for me, it's not about how deep you go, it's about how many times you do it. I've hit beans once but I'm not completely covered in scars. Someone who has hit beans zero times but is completely covered in scars "wins" compared to me. You probably "win" compared to me. But if someone hit beans twice and then never cut again, I "win" compared to them.

So basically what I'm trying to say is, if you're trying to "win", you don't need beans for that. Styro and cat scratches are enough. Mods delete if not allowed. This is just me trying to suggest harm reduction. Because it's SO much more likely to get infected or heal really badly (which you probably do not want on your inner thigh) if the entire dermis is broken