I have wasted my entire opportunity to be young

[s-w]

I just turned 24, I know most people would still consider that "young", but I have done absolutely nothing with my life. I have never had a real girlfriend, I have never gone out with friends... I barely even have any friends other than a couple of guys at my shitty retail job.

I want to be 19 again for the rest of my life. I don't want to get older I am not ready to have actual responsibilities. I don't want my fucking family to get old and die before my eyes I just want to freeze time and live in limbo for eternity. But it's physically impossible. I still FEEL like I am a teenager but I am halfway through my 20s. I haven't been a teen for almost half a decade.

Everyone I know from school have careers, relationships, and actual futures. I want to get a girlfriend who loves me and go travelling and just be happy and stay young forever. Life is seriously fucking unfair. I hate having fucking social anxiety and I hate not being normal. I wish I would just want to go out with friends and meet someone. I would rather die than reach my 30s.

 

[thereisnomeaning]

I understand what you mean. I'm 23, trying to start again in university for like the third time, not knowing how to properly function and being an adult, not having anything of my own, still feeling like a lost teenager
Unrelated but not really: This reminds me of a song that hits just like what you've described, I remember the lyrics but not the name now

I understand what you mean. I'm 23, trying to start again in university for like the third time, not knowing how to properly function and being an adult, not having anything of my own, still feeling like a lost teenager
Unrelated but not really: This reminds me of a song that hits just like what you've described, I remember the lyrics but not the name now

That song

 

[undertheskin]

I'm sorry, I know how you feel, I'm 27 and things fell apart when I was around 18, since then I've barely been getting by, don't have any friends and am constantly isolated. haven't worked for some years either. it's hard for me to not to feel like a failure with all the societal expectations put on people these days. and the shame perpetuates the cycle, I stopped doing as much and getting out and the longer you spend inside ruminating the harder it gets to be a "member of society". I've given up in a way, being suicidal will do that.

 

[kab]

I feel you, and dread the years ahead. 21 here, not doing anything productive with my life, trying still but losing a lot more than I win. Recently been thinking a lot about how I felt like I wouldn't be anything as I got older and it hurts to prove myself right.

 

[User00]

Im 25 now and I didnt have much of a teenagehood either, i didnt go out ever, all i wanted was friends and i never had any throughout my teenage years. I never lived much of what is considered normal life anyway.

 

[JudasIscariot]

Me too. It's a huge contributor to my suicide. My entire adolescence is over, a lot of it wasted. I was never given the chance to even experience a quarter of a normal adolescence. I wish someone had told me that I could never be able to grow into a likeable person. I'm sorry you're struggling. I see adolescents with more lives than me and it fills me with sadness. I feel like I'm growing older every minute and will eventually be that poor elderly person who everyone is wary of. It saddens me immensely. I really relate to what you're saying, I'm sorry you feel this way too.

 

[FuneralCry]

There could certainly never be anything fair about existing in this cruel world where all that is inevitable for us as humans is suffering, loss and decay. Ageing really can be such a horrible thing.

 

[orca87]

I'm 36.

I felt the same like you most of the time.

However, I had the best, best time of my life when I was 28-34. It was that I felt I had a life for the first time. It might not be too late.

DM me if you like to talk….

 

[sick.faery]

litterally same, turned 22 like 3 months ago and yea time is ticking x((
havent really done much since i was 18 and kinda been wasting whats supposed to be the best years of my life on my ass doing nothing :/ think about that every day and makes me feel like shit
really hope that some of my stuff can get partially get fix asap like that i can life hard and enjoy being young to the fullest and stuff for a couple months then kms

 

[ManchildLoser]

I feel exactly the same.
Im like a lost teenager, who is still 14 years old, but im actually 34...its really too late for me, i have wasted too many years and now i just want to leave this world and start over, be someone else

 

[Mandzio]

that sucks