Mongoose
Member
- Apr 26, 2023
- 23
The title says it all.
I had SN from before the hysteria happened in the UK, and it became impossible to acquire. I tried two previous times. I prepared and went through the whole process of fasting beforehand and taking the painkillers and antiemetics. But each time, I couldn't bring myself to do it.
Tonight, I used my last 25g. I went through the whole day-long process and even had it ready in the water, ready to drink. But I couldn't do it. I now have no choice but to spend the rest of my life knowing that I'm a coward. No matter how much my brain turns against me, and no matter how much I hate myself and my existence. No matter how lonely I am, and knowing how much of an incompetent moron I am. I know there is no way out. Because I am a coward
I had SN from before the hysteria happened in the UK, and it became impossible to acquire. I tried two previous times. I prepared and went through the whole process of fasting beforehand and taking the painkillers and antiemetics. But each time, I couldn't bring myself to do it.
Tonight, I used my last 25g. I went through the whole day-long process and even had it ready in the water, ready to drink. But I couldn't do it. I now have no choice but to spend the rest of my life knowing that I'm a coward. No matter how much my brain turns against me, and no matter how much I hate myself and my existence. No matter how lonely I am, and knowing how much of an incompetent moron I am. I know there is no way out. Because I am a coward