Help I have this strange urges to drink alcohol

[obei]

So this has been happening on and off for the last year or two, but it has became really intense now.
The issue is that I think about alcohol all the time, and I dont get why. Im not even doing that bad rn. Im even on the verge on cancelling therapy completely if that means I would stop taking my meds and be able to drink (I still manage to sneak in drinks from time to time)…
I want a drink so badly rn :(

 

[Victim.Of.Life]

I have the same feeling. I would love to drink a bottle of vodka every evening with lots of pills I could never get my hands on.

 

[LaughingGoat]

Us alcoholics call that alcoholism.