Discussion I have the tools, but the pain doesn't ease

[wisp]

I have what I need for CTB, why then can't I enjoy this little time I have left?

 

[UKscotty]

I find it even more stressful when I have had things for CTB around.

Most people assume having them ready is a comfort blanket, but for me it's the opposite.

The biggest stress was when I had a bag of cyanide powder and heroin in my safe. I'd have to check several times a day etc. Was glad when I got rid.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Why should your pain ease when you have your stuff for ctb? That's the same when there's incurable depression, what can therapy do then?

I personally would do things I like before I CTB, things I enjoy to do but having my method ready doesn't necessarily make my life better for the remaining time.