I have so many friends but im so lonely

[deadofdespair]

I think I am not human, there is a barrier between me and everyone else. Why is this? How is it even possible?

 

[Secro]

Friends is just a word; who you can truly trust and get along with very well is something completely different.
I think this word is used far too often.

 

[deadofdespair]

Friends is just a word; who you can truly trust and get along with very well is something completely different.
I think this word is used far too often.

Your right. Acquaintances might make more sense, but they don't feel like that. Their more than that. Idk what im saying

 

[EscThisPlace321]

Your right. Acquaintances might make more sense, but they don't feel like that. Their more than that. Idk what im saying

Listen to that one. Badass track. Maybe you'll feel better. Go to a club or something...it'll help. When I feel like that I'll just go to the sex club or chat with guys on sniffies.

 

[birdie8]

having so many people around you and still feeling lonely is such a cruel feeling. it's awful when the world knows you, talks to you, and you're constantly surrounded by people, yet somehow none of it feels comforting. it almost just becomes background noise that numbs you instead. you can spend all day interacting with people and still end the day feeling like no one actually sees you. that kind of loneliness hits differently.

 

[deadofdespair]

having so many people around you and still feeling lonely is such a cruel feeling. it's awful when the world knows you, talks to you, and you're constantly surrounded by people, yet somehow none of it feels comforting. it almost just becomes background noise that numbs you instead. you can spend all day interacting with people and still end the day feeling like no one actually sees you. that kind of loneliness hits differently.

Thanks for understanding. It really means a lot.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

I think I am not human, there is a barrier between me and everyone else. Why is this? How is it even possible?

Cptsd can make you very isolated. You can read about it

 

[deadofdespair]

Cptsd can make you very isolated. You can read about it

I think I've heard a little about it, but I really don't have any trauma.

 

[RawRX3]

I think I am not human, there is a barrier between me and everyone else. Why is this? How is it even possible?

I have a similar feeling. For me I think specifically my emotional neglect and disassociation as a child ended up creating a disconnect between me and others. I think not having been cared for and loved in the way I needed while also caring for and loving everyone else as I hid my own problems created the experience of being unseen and even when I had plenty of signs that should've meant something they never went anyway and so neither did that barrier. I don't know if things can change but they probably can't at least till that core desire to be cared for and loved is met, which I doubt it will be ^^"

Maybe you have something like that?

 

[evrlastingsea]

i feel exactly the same. people will say i am the most social girl and i seem to have endless friend. but i don't really feel like i'm part of the society or even feel like a proper functioning human. i don't think i feel anything too genuine when i'm with someone else. for me, i'm used to hiding things and masking. doing that for way too long to survive, i feel such a huge barrier in between me and anyone else. i feel like i can lose or leave everything at any point, it made me unable to actually connect with any other human. when i do, it's mostly unhealthy.