I have no purpose in life

[passedawayinapril]

I have no purpose in life

 

[chek]

So sorry that's tough and endlessly debilitating...I'm also without purpose

 

[passedawayinapril]

So sorry that's tough and endlessly debilitating...I'm also without purpose

I genuinely cannot function like a normal integrated person in society.

I do not have any people in my life other than my family and I do not chase friendships or meeting new people, but also my inability to socialize only makes it worse. I'm not able to just go out of my way to meet new people if I am extremely anxious.

 

[Klophy]

I know. I can barely fake being okay for more than ten minutes before I start sliding. The thought of calling someone, showing up, saying anything that isn't rehearsed... it feels exhausting. Even this reply has been rewritten a number of times.

I don't have anyone either, except the people tied to me by obligation, and even they seem distant.

Sometimes I feel like there's a piece of me that's missing, the part that lets people actually enjoy things or handle the world. I'm here just watching everyone else live from the outside.

 

[Karera]

-but to suffer.

What I think for me, anyway.

 

[Vaelaina]

Same. I will stay being a rolling girl until I finally fall

 

[enough of this]

I have no purpose in life

I feel very much the same way. My entire identity was survival-based. Since I've surrendered that, I don't know who I am or what my purpose is. I'm lost and disoriented.

 

[somewhatdeadly]

problem is for me not that i cannot find a purpose. the problem is the fact that i dont need a purpose and i will be imposing that onto myself.

 

[Galam]

People only get their purpose by looks and social class. The pretty people with rich parents never have such problems with sense, they always can take drugs and go to some events, become model or actor and travel alot with friends from same backround. They have access to a life many others never will gain. I cannot make any purpose while I am poor or actively excluded from everywhere by everyone I meet. The only purpose for people like me is to burn them away so we can have some time to rest and create a life without people that damage us. They never let me do anything and they don't care that I am bullied, they just do the same against me and other vulnerable people. I am always just laughed at, or they look aggressiv and disgusted. I never find people when I am outside walking to talk to. So I am inside and can't do anything really other than watching media as long as I have internet, but the shitty people have cut me off from welfare so I lose this room and have no access to any food and internet anymore. I think they want to make me homeless and they want that I try to kill them so they have more reasons for abusing me like they did with Brenda Ann Spencer, she was abused and bullied.

The same people are the reason why people like me don't get any care assistance for life and no assisted suicide either. And why exist in the first place. They allowed my parents to breed.