I have no one

[Chili]

It just kind of hit me how alone I really am. I am no one's first choice. I broke up with my long time boyfriend in July because he simply didn't want to and didn't like to talk to me or spend time with me. He also didn't like my weight gain. My birthday was yesterday. I invited all my friends and paid for it myself. I've went to all my friends birthday parties, even if I had to take off work. But not one of them came to mine, some said they had homework, etc., but just 2 days prior they went to a haunted maze 1 hr and 30 minutes away, so not that busy. I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I'm not a fun person. I tried to be sociable and change, I guess.

 

[kasa]

I don't think I've ever been someone special to anyone. But honestly, craving someone's affection feels more humiliating to me. I'd rather be alone, even if it gets lonely sometimes. Life's still pretty okay without a best friend or someone to love. I guess that's not exactly helpful advice but… you're not the only one who feels that way!
By the way, i like your profile picture.
i watched tokyo revengers

 

[Chili]

I don't think I've ever been someone special to anyone. But honestly, craving someone's affection feels more humiliating to me. I'd rather be alone, even if it gets lonely sometimes. Life's still pretty okay without a best friend or someone to love. I guess that's not exactly helpful advice but… you're not the only one who feels that way!
By the way, i like your profile picture.
i watched tokyo revengers

I feel the same way. For me, it's more like. I do my best to be the best friend I can be, but it's clearly not enough for other people. The humiliating part is being let down, or you knowing they are not prioritizing you and watching them make excuses (I'm sick, I have homework, etc) when you know they're not true. Life is fine without a best friend or someone to love, but I just get left with this feeling I cant exactly describe. It's nice to know someone else goes through the same stuff but I'm sorry to hear it. And thank you, I love Tokyo revengers.

 

[MyShadow]

It just kind of hit me how alone I really am. I am no one's first choice. I broke up with my long time boyfriend in July because he simply didn't want to and didn't like to talk to me or spend time with me. He also didn't like my weight gain. My birthday was yesterday. I invited all my friends and paid for it myself. I've went to all my friends birthday parties, even if I had to take off work. But not one of them came to mine, some said they had homework, etc., but just 2 days prior they went to a haunted maze 1 hr and 30 minutes away, so not that busy. I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I'm not a fun person. I tried to be sociable and change, I guess.

I think that's the hardest part of being alone is knowing that the one person who you thought loved you, completely rejected you. Getting hurt by those you love cuts so much deeper.

I hope that you find the love, acceptance, peace and kindness that we all deserve.

 

[Sleipnir95]

It just kind of hit me how alone I really am. I am no one's first choice. I broke up with my long time boyfriend in July because he simply didn't want to and didn't like to talk to me or spend time with me. He also didn't like my weight gain. My birthday was yesterday. I invited all my friends and paid for it myself. I've went to all my friends birthday parties, even if I had to take off work. But not one of them came to mine, some said they had homework, etc., but just 2 days prior they went to a haunted maze 1 hr and 30 minutes away, so not that busy. I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I'm not a fun person. I tried to be sociable and change, I guess.

I also noticed a lot over the years of always being available for others and nobody being available for me. It definitely hurts I'm sorry you have experienced this too