Help I have no idea describe this and Im hoping someone here also gets it.

[sadidiot0328]

Does anyone else avoid social interactions or balance them in a way its not so often? Im afraid Im saying something that upsets people or saying something wrong and making the few friends I have upset with me. The same happens on a day to day basis. The whole day Im worried I am going to anger someone or do something wrong or something WILL go wrong. It eats me up and I usually distract myself to ignore the feeling.

Another recent thing Ive dealt with is the constant thought of something disturbing or awful. Sometimes a graphic or simply gross thought will appear in my head and get more and more intense with little things that remind me of it until it disappears one day. Then itll appear in waves from then on. THEN I'll have an issue where I just need to double-check something. Even if im 100% positive I did it, Ill completely forget and itll eat at me until I check again. and again. and again.

Please, does anyone know a name for this kind of thing? I searched it up and google and other people online say its OCD but I havent been diagonsed with that and I dont think I have it. I dont know how to get rid of these feelings. i attached a drawing that explains somewhat

 

[laetitia7]

hi! i'm going through this. i am diagnosed bipolar type 2, autistic, anxiety. i do not have a diagnosis of borderline or OCD, but i have the same symptoms you're having that are characteristic of anxiety. these are symptoms of fear of rejection and intrusive thoughts. a month ago i started suffering intrusive thoughts for the first time in my life (i am 21yo and treat mental health since i was 11) that were linked to my anxiety disorder

i can assure you you're experiencing anxiety-based symptoms, and untreated anxiety can lead to a depressive state.

my intrusive thoughts got better after a month taking my anxiety meds again (i had stopped). they consisted of fear of killing someone and running away while driving, fear of doing a terrible, terrible thing to my pets, to pets i treat at the veterinary hospital i worked, fear of committing zoophilia, pedophilia, theft, agression. disturbing images popped into my head, related to traumas, things i've never done etc etc.

keep this in mind: for any diagnosis to be valid, you don't need to just attend the diagnostic criteria. there is a severity and impairment criteria related. i would suggest, if you're capable, to search a psychiatrist. they can help identify anxiety related issues and medicate you to prevent crisis and treat your symptoms.

be well!

 

[Mirrory Me]

Of course you are gonna say something people don't get, or that doesn't vibe- but those situations happen sometimes. On the other hand, you could learn to work on those differences, and perhaps find people you could personally open up to, things that are on your mind.

That OCD sounds like a lot of stress- I used to double check my keys before going out of a door, I guess it happened because I had a lot of stress and tried to stay in control of things.

 

[soobirang]

if you struggle with mental health issues, theres absolutely ways you can experience obsessive/compulsive-like thoughts and feelings, without necessarily falling under the OCD diagnosis. im autistic with ADHD and experience HUGE Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (look it up, it might help? its kinda like... being really afraid of rejection and reacting very emotionally to possibilities of people you love "rejecting" you, so you're extremely sensitive to things like criticism and conflict)

 

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You need to tell a doctor about your symptoms, particularly the intrusive thoughts if they're lasting that long. It may help to keep a record of what you're experiencing and how it's affecting you day-to-day, just from a standpoint of letting a doctor get an understanding about what's going on.

Most likely, this would be symptomatic of an anxiety disorder. There would be a few possibilities, with OCD being one of them. Also as @soobirang pointed out, it doesn't have to be full-blown OCD. Many people experience traits without fitting an actual diagnosis.

If you want to narrow down a cause, then you flatly need the input of a doctor. All we can do is speculate and I'm not sure how helpful that's going to be for you.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Have you been diagnosed by a psychologist? You say you haven't been diagnosed with OCD, so I am guessing that you have. There is also OCPD which is often not so easy as OCD to identify and you can have anxiety or other things like ADHD along with it. It can be rather complicated at times. A therapist is the only one who can give you an answer. If your not getting one, then ask them to explain your symptoms and why you feel the way you do. I've done this many times. For example there are often times when I feel like I have BPD but my therapist has explained to me that it is just my reaction to extreme stress and anxiety.

 

[futurebuscatcher]

Does anyone else avoid social interactions or balance them in a way its not so often? Im afraid Im saying something that upsets people or saying something wrong and making the few friends I have upset with me. The same happens on a day to day basis. The whole day Im worried I am going to anger someone or do something wrong or something WILL go wrong. It eats me up and I usually distract myself to ignore the feeling.

Another recent thing Ive dealt with is the constant thought of something disturbing or awful. Sometimes a graphic or simply gross thought will appear in my head and get more and more intense with little things that remind me of it until it disappears one day. Then itll appear in waves from then on. THEN I'll have an issue where I just need to double-check something. Even if im 100% positive I did it, Ill completely forget and itll eat at me until I check again. and again. and again.

Please, does anyone know a name for this kind of thing? I searched it up and google and other people online say its OCD but I havent been diagonsed with that and I dont think I have it. I dont know how to get rid of these feelings. i attached a drawing that explains somewhat

I do relate to the first one but be careful cause you'll fall down a path where you will lose yourself and lie about the littlest things which makes you feel insane

That being said what you're going through is normal in anxiety based symptoms or disorders. This ain't just in OCD, it can be Schizophrenia, Depression, Anxiety, Autism, and even ADHD but even then you don't need a mental disorder to have them, just to be anxious enough.

These thoughts do not define you. They are called intrusive thoughts for a reason. Usually they're Anxieties or fears we have manifest. A lot of victims of CSA may end up having graphic pedophilic thoughts because they're afraid of becoming one or passing down that hurt. Some abuse survivors brains they to convince them that they're abusive. And even suicidal brains will try and pick out every small detail to make you read into everything too much to stress you out.

I am saying this because I get some absolutely heinous thoughts.

Try this:
Remember: What your brain tells you doesn't define you– how you react to these thoughts does. If you're having a thought about killing a cat and you hate it, then you're not a cat killer.

Try and discern the reason/origin. Is is the fear of becoming that thing? Is it cause of trauma?

Distractions!

Sometimes I can sorta feel am awful thought coming along when I look at something, so I look away. It's a visual trigger in that case.

Sometimes I get really noisy music or even just loud or distracting sounds off ASMR videos (heavy on distracting, you dont have to enjoy it, it's supposed to interupt that thought) to stop them from leaking in until I'm in a better mood. Or if you have an active imagination just think abt the music your listening to.

Watch a stupid video or movie on a random topic

I also Sometimes interrupt said thoughts by simply getting so annoyed at them or just going "no"

This is just what works for me. I hope you find something that works for you

Just remember these thoughts don't mean your a bad person.