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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Autophagic Loneliness
Feb 12, 2025
231
I observe the objects around me, and they remain static. In the exact place where I left them: none of them have moved, they are all the same. Because no one has moved the objects, no one has interacted. I am in a desert. Alone in the desert.

There is a funereal aura of silence permeating the reality I am experiencing. As if a psychological twilight overshadows my senses, and all I see is my own solitude reflected in the world. How it hurts me to know, oh God, how I would have liked to have been looked in the eyes. How I would have liked someone to see my true self and accept it. How I wanted to recognize the physicality of the other person who observes me with intense eye contact.
 
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Quietist

Quietist

Lost Cause
Sep 6, 2024
282
This choked me up.
 
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TheLastGreySky

TheLastGreySky

Wizard
Nov 24, 2023
690
What is the legacy of a person that does not conquer and thirst for greater things?
You want love, and if you can handle the agony then great... But the love you describe is not something that you find. It's something that you build with someone else.
And until you can love yourself, then you too will remain static.
 
Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,118
People who look at me in the eye usually get intimidated to a comedic extent, apparently grey is just terrifying a colour to the average nerd.
 
Luvwww.com

Luvwww.com

Luv
Feb 21, 2026
25
I observe the objects around me, and they remain static. In the exact place where I left them: none of them have moved, they are all the same. Because no one has moved the objects, no one has interacted. I am in a desert. Alone in the desert.

There is a funereal aura of silence permeating the reality I am experiencing. As if a psychological twilight overshadows my senses, and all I see is my own solitude reflected in the world. How it hurts me to know, oh God, how I would have liked to have been looked in the eyes. How I would have liked someone to see my true self and accept it. How I wanted to recognize the physicality of the other person who observes me with intense eye contact.
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