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bananaolympus

bananaolympus

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Dec 12, 2024
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I managed to get a 100 ml bottle so how much do i inject it? Not planning to do it now just want the info for when the time comes
 
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Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
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People usually drink it even though it tastes vile. I don't know how you supposed to inject it youself. From my understanding you would pass out even before you would manage to fully inject it.
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
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I managed to get a 100 ml bottle so how much do i inject it? Not planning to do it now just want the info for when the time comes
how ya managed to get N new source or just not really doable way?
 
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bananaolympus

Arcanist
Dec 12, 2024
415
how ya managed to get N new source or just not really doable way?
i know someone of the underworld of you know what i mean who told me of a vet that i can buy it for the right price his customers buy it to kill street dogs or neighboors annoying dogs fucked up yeah and was expensive but it was an opportunity i couldn't pass
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
693
not a type i would reach out for unfortunaly >.<

but even tho im jelly im still happy that people manage to get it tho
 
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adamantc

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Mar 29, 2026
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I managed to get a 100 ml bottle so how much do i inject it? Not planning to do it now just want the info for when the time comes
You should drink it unless you have the equipment to inject. This will include an infusion pump to ensure full delivery of the drug.
 
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bananaolympus

Arcanist
Dec 12, 2024
415
How much Did It cost? is there any more for sale?
Cost me 4k and well yeah but i i can't give you any info is not something i can share for security reasons i don't move in these circles just had the opportunity and took it i don't know if it was expensive or cheap i just pay and got the hell out of there
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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What is the concentration on the bottle? I believe tg PPH recommends taking 10g.
 
intr0verse

intr0verse

Arcanist
Jan 29, 2021
479
Cost me 4k and well yeah but i i can't give you any info is not something i can share for security reasons i don't move in these circles just had the opportunity and took it i don't know if it was expensive or cheap i just pay and got the hell out of there
4k of what?
 
Neyferuh

Neyferuh

Member
Jun 21, 2026
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Firstly good on you for having it in your possession. It is the most painless way to go because it shuts the brain down first, so your body feels no pain.

A few years ago I was planning on buying N in the black market (it was not easy and I got scammed, but there is a risk to everythign, just have to keep trying). I did not keep the information, but there was a ctb website in Spanish that was devoted to N and taking your last breath.
From what I remember, yes you can drink it. The dosage that you have is enough.

People did mix it with something sweet (because the taste is vile). Also people had talked about sucking on hard candy before drinking the N to help with the intense tastes of it.

There were people who recommended drinking a hard liquor, like whiskey, 20 minutes prior. No a massive amount, a small glass. here was something in the alcohol that activates the N faster or something.

I have tried to find this blog and it seems to have disappeared.

As with anything that you are going to ingest that can cause nausea, I would do the meto protocol prior to taking N. It will not interfer with N activating in your system, and the last thing you want to do is vomit it up.
 
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LongJacks

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Feb 17, 2026
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Firstly good on you for having it in your possession. It is the most painless way to go because it shuts the brain down first, so your body feels no pain.

A few years ago I was planning on buying N in the black market (it was not easy and I got scammed, but there is a risk to everythign, just have to keep trying). I did not keep the information, but there was a ctb website in Spanish that was devoted to N and taking your last breath.
From what I remember, yes you can drink it. The dosage that you have is enough.

People did mix it with something sweet (because the taste is vile). Also people had talked about sucking on hard candy before drinking the N to help with the intense tastes of it.

There were people who recommended drinking a hard liquor, like whiskey, 20 minutes prior. No a massive amount, a small glass. here was something in the alcohol that activates the N faster or something.

I have tried to find this blog and it seems to have disappeared.

As with anything that you are going to ingest that can cause nausea, I would do the meto protocol prior to taking N. It will not interfer with N activating in your system, and the last thing you want to do is vomit it up.
Are you serious Spain???? That's near me did they buy it within Spain though? :O
Firstly good on you for having it in your possession. It is the most painless way to go because it shuts the brain down first, so your body feels no pain.

A few years ago I was planning on buying N in the black market (it was not easy and I got scammed, but there is a risk to everythign, just have to keep trying). I did not keep the information, but there was a ctb website in Spanish that was devoted to N and taking your last breath.
From what I remember, yes you can drink it. The dosage that you have is enough.

People did mix it with something sweet (because the taste is vile). Also people had talked about sucking on hard candy before drinking the N to help with the intense tastes of it.

There were people who recommended drinking a hard liquor, like whiskey, 20 minutes prior. No a massive amount, a small glass. here was something in the alcohol that activates the N faster or something.

I have tried to find this blog and it seems to have disappeared.

As with anything that you are going to ingest that can cause nausea, I would do the meto protocol prior to taking N. It will not interfer with N activating in your system, and the last thing you want to do is vomit it up.
Another question if I may, but doesn't N end you within a few minutes? Does it make you that nauseous?
 
Neyferuh

Neyferuh

Member
Jun 21, 2026
28
Are you serious Spain???? That's near me did they buy it within Spain though? :O

Another question if I may, but doesn't N end you within a few minutes? Does it make you that nauseous?
No, I am in Mexico. The other part of the world that speaks Spanish ;)
Yes it causes quite a bit of nausea from what I was able to research. And you do not want to vomit it up.
There is a very interesting documentary on YouTube about this subject in Belgium, where it is legal, even for people who are depressed.
It felt so good to watch a very humanized version of approaching this whole topic.
It was after watching it some years ago that I really started looking at trying to procure N.
I just checked and the documentary is fortunately still up:

Not for me...and many others here.
I think that if we had $4000 to pay for N, we would buy it too.
 
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LongJacks

Student
Feb 17, 2026
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No, I am in Mexico. The other part of the world that speaks Spanish ;)
Yes it causes quite a bit of nausea from what I was able to research. And you do not want to vomit it up.
There is a very interesting documentary on YouTube about this subject in Belgium, where it is legal, even for people who are depressed.
It felt so good to watch a very humanized version of approaching this whole topic.
It was after watching it some years ago that I really started looking at trying to procure N.
I just checked and the documentary is fortunately still up:


I think that if we had $4000 to pay for N, we would buy it too.

Oh nvm FFF it's too far away for me thanks though, also you can't buy N in Belgium?? I can just go to Belgium and ask any doctor?
 
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Tommen Baratheon

1+1=3
Dec 26, 2023
495
Oh nvm FFF it's too far away for me thanks though, also you can't buy N in Belgium?? I can just go to Belgium and ask any doctor?
You can ask, but they won't give it to you.
No, I am in Mexico. The other part of the world that speaks Spanish ;)
Yes it causes quite a bit of nausea from what I was able to research. And you do not want to vomit it up.
There is a very interesting documentary on YouTube about this subject in Belgium, where it is legal, even for people who are depressed.
It felt so good to watch a very humanized version of approaching this whole topic.
It was after watching it some years ago that I really started looking at trying to procure N.
I just checked and the documentary is fortunately still up:


I think that if we had $4000 to pay for N, we would buy it too.

Saying people in Belgium can get euthanasia for being depressed is oversimplifying it. There are certain conditions that have to be met. There needs to be an incurable disease for one, and then there needs to be unbearable pyshicial and/or mental suffering (ondraaglijk psychisch lijden). In case of the latter, 3 doctors, one of them a psychiatrist, need to approve the euthanasia.

It's either a bad documentary or you didn't pay attention.
 
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Neyferuh

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Jun 21, 2026
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Oh nvm FFF it's too far away for me thanks though, also you can't buy N in Belgium?? I can just go to Belgium and ask any doctor?
If you are close to Belgium it would be worth an exploratory trip. I do not know what their black market is like, but the laws around euthanasia there are much more flexible. Many other countries require a terminally ill diagnosis. If you are in Europe, then perhaps the dark web may be the place to buy N (but as with anything, it has it´s risks). If you are in Latin America, depending on the country, due to corruption, it can be acquired, not easily but it can be bought.
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LongJacks

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Feb 17, 2026
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You can ask, but they won't give it to you.

Saying people in Belgium can get euthanasia for being depressed is oversimplifying it. There are certain conditions that have to be met. There needs to be an incurable disease for one, and then there needs to be unbearable pyshicial and/or mental suffering (ondraaglijk psychisch lijden). In case of the latter, 3 doctors, one of them a psychiatrist, need to approve the euthanasia.

It's either a bad documentary or you didn't pay attention.
It's restricted I see, thanks for the info
If you are close to Belgium it would be worth an exploratory trip. I do not know what their black market is like, but the laws around euthanasia there are much more flexible. Many other countries require a terminally ill diagnosis. If you are in Europe, then perhaps the dark web may be the place to buy N (but as with anything, it has it´s risks). If you are in Latin America, depending on the country, due to corruption, it can be acquired, not easily but it can be bought.
Suerte
I see, thanks as well for the info
 
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Fadenself00_

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Sep 21, 2025
405
I did not keep the information, but there was a ctb website in Spanish that was devoted to N and taking your last breath.
That sounds like you fell for the typical AI slop "Get the free euthanasia drug now at getthesuicidedrug100percentnoscamguaranteed.com"
 
Neyferuh

Neyferuh

Member
Jun 21, 2026
28
You can ask, but they won't give it to you.

Saying people in Belgium can get euthanasia for being depressed is oversimplifying it. There are certain conditions that have to be met. There needs to be an incurable disease for one, and then there needs to be unbearable pyshicial and/or mental suffering (ondraaglijk psychisch lijden). In case of the latter, 3 doctors, one of them a psychiatrist, need to approve the euthanasia.

It's either a bad documentary or you didn't pay attention.
Thank you for clarifying. It is a much more layered topic, you are absolutely correct. From my understanding, after researching several countires laws that have legalized euthanasia, Belgium is the most inclusive, as the doctors and other professionals involved in the process generally seem to have a much more compassionate view in regards to evaluating people who may want to be euthanised. I know that it is not without it´s controversy. I am not saying that just by going there one can simply recieve the service. But when one is sufferring from a chronic state of not being well, it is very comforting to see a humanised approach. For someone who is considering assited ctb, it is important to research different countries, their requirements and their approaches. Personally it is will not how I will go, but each person has the right to explore their options, given the resources available to them. I think that was the point that I was trying to make.
The documentary is very good. It was not my intention to mislead anyone on this site. Thank you for expounding on this matter.
That sounds like you fell for the typical AI slop "Get the free euthanasia drug now at getthesuicidedrug100percentnoscamguaranteed.com"
I am a bit older, this was before AI slop sank into the internet ;)
It was a blog that had been started by someone who chose N as the way that they were going to exit.
They documented the lead up, and then a friend of theirs kept the blog going as a way for people to exchange information. Just like this one.
This was almost 10 years ago, before pre-Covid censorship, AI manipulation, etc.
I believe it has since been taken down, as I can no longer find it.
There is a lot of information that can no longer be found without digging through the bowels of the past.
But there are always ways to find the things that you need.
Just keep going.
 
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