My wife of 8 years left me to "find herself" a few months ago and despite me accomplishing everything she asked it was "too late" even though we agreed we'd work things out. I'm 34 and I'm not starting over again. I've been spending the past week just drinking heavily to the point of passing out every day and quit eating and know it's a painful way to go but at this point I just don't care. I've been through enough in this existence to realize it isn't for me and I'm just done with it all. If things get worse (as they likely will) I will probably speed things up with other methods and have a few options (none painless).
This world is just too hard and relationships come and go and your left with yourself and rebuilding everything just to have it fall apart again is exhausting.
I know for a fact I am done though, I knew it a few months even before my wife left and once she mentally checked out (before she physically did) I realized that it was over and I can't imagine living my life without the person I had been with for over a decade and been married to for 8 years.
I already have written a will of sorts where she can have all of my things when I do CTB filled with apologies for everything I failed on in the past.,
Just felt the need to mention my situation so people on here know my situation. Pretty much mentally/emotionally checked out and realized I'm not strong enough for this existence. I had a good run though while it lasted. Just can't deal with things anymore to put it lightly. 34 years of ups and downs has been too much and I've just had enough. My grandpa would have told me to toughen up but his entire life was miserable with three failed marriages and he ended up taking his own life at 62 so I guess I don't want to deal with another 30 years of this when it's hopeless.
This world is just too hard and relationships come and go and your left with yourself and rebuilding everything just to have it fall apart again is exhausting.
I know for a fact I am done though, I knew it a few months even before my wife left and once she mentally checked out (before she physically did) I realized that it was over and I can't imagine living my life without the person I had been with for over a decade and been married to for 8 years.
I already have written a will of sorts where she can have all of my things when I do CTB filled with apologies for everything I failed on in the past.,
Just felt the need to mention my situation so people on here know my situation. Pretty much mentally/emotionally checked out and realized I'm not strong enough for this existence. I had a good run though while it lasted. Just can't deal with things anymore to put it lightly. 34 years of ups and downs has been too much and I've just had enough. My grandpa would have told me to toughen up but his entire life was miserable with three failed marriages and he ended up taking his own life at 62 so I guess I don't want to deal with another 30 years of this when it's hopeless.
