I have everything ready but I'm scared.

[AfriQuark]

I decided to go the pesticides route, brought a small bottle for cheap and it's right by my side. I know it will be painful and major debilitating risks. But I don't think I have available alternatives. It likely wouldn't work but just this once I'm hoping for the odds to be in my favor.

I'm just outside, alone in a field so no one will see me. And my screams may not be loud enough to alert anyone.

But I'm scared now. The only thing holding me back is me not bothering to drink. So I'm just waiting and hoping for the strength.

If all goes well this is my last time here. Hopefully.

 

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

I wish you peace with whatever you choose

 

[bipolar22]

Best of luck brother.

 

[tiltedcompass]

It's okay to be scared, this isn't an easy choice after all. Whatever you end up doing, I wish you the best of luck.

 

[plzoffme]

Go buy a rope and find a sturdy tree. That is a better method then pesticides which will have you in agony. I read another post on here of someone who did
this method and they were in agony. I am not trying to deter you or stop you but I hate to see you suffer more. Anyway, its your choice hope you find peace.