I have constant mental breakdowns and life will never get better

[subhuman metalhead]

Because of my mental health conditions, I'm more emotionally/mentally unstable than the element Francium (I am being dead serious) I feel as though the only ways this pain will ever end are if I A.) get my reproductive organs removed since they cause debilitating mood swings despite heavy birth control, B.) go on a shit-ton of medication which causes me to become sedated and unable to do or feel anything or C.) kill myself just to end the pain. All of these options are terrible with the exception of the first option maybe however I'm unable to have a hysterectomy because I do not fit the criteria to have said operation performed. I don't want to go on more medication than I'm already on because it makes me feel as though I can't mentally do anything. The last option is my final resort if things just stop working out in my favor. I deserve to die with dignity, not be scared of what other people will think of my passing or my actions and behaviors. Suicide sometimes is just the answer for some people I believe because they've tried everything to get better but nothing has ever worked, that or they don't have the willpower to get better like I do.

Life is terrible

 

[nothingnobody]

atleast youre feeling something

 

[stillunemployed]

so what are you listening to right now?

 

[Conker]

so what are you listening to right now?

This

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really dreadful and tiring what you are going through, there really is too much suffering in existing. But anyway best wishes, I hope you eventually find some kind of relief in whatever happens.