I have been in hospital for awhile and it has shown there is no fix for me.

[BillyBob]

I have been in hospital for an anorexia nervosa and are sure that there is no other option but to CTB now.
It has become clear that I will never actually overcome it and the urges it causes to binge or not eat in general.
There is no normal want to eat anymore and after being in hospital I am now fatter, feel ugly and hate touching my body as well as the look of it.
Going to hospital was my last chance at trying to live a normal life and in reality I will never live a so called normal life now days.
Death is going to be the only option that will being any sort of peace to my life which is sad but the truth at this point.

Sorry for venting, I am just at a point that I have to now plan to CTB soon to end the suffering.
Most of the planning has been done, just need to finish off my notes and then set a date to go.

 

[cbtvvxxvvv]

hospitals have zero respect or care for how you chose to live your life. they shove their rules , medications , diets all on you to turn you "normal". it will never change never. the system is broken by design.

curious on what method you are deciding to go with? :3

 

[BillyBob]

hospitals have zero respect or care for how you chose to live your life. they shove their rules , medications , diets all on you to turn you "normal". it will never change never. the system is broken by design.

curious on what method you are deciding to go with? :3

I have access to a few methods I have collected over the years. Will be going with SN and if some how I make it through that then I will choose H2S

 

[cbtvvxxvvv]

if SN is the main one just follow protocol to ensure you don't have to use H2S. SN is very good at what it does as long as you follow the steps to ensure it stays in your body the required time