I have all the components for SN

[Eadamk]

So I have everything I need for SN. I have not eaten since noon yesterday. I just took a meclazine. When I get home from work, I will begin the stat process and go to sleep

 

[sealbabies]

Best regards and hope all goes right as weird as that sounds...

 

[Cathy Ames]

I'm sorry for your loss and very sorry that you are hurting and that things are so difficult and unenjoyable right now.

 

[Eadamk]

Thanks. It's just got overwhelming

 

[Cathy Ames]

I know what you mean.

 

[Sm42]

I wish everything goes as you wish.

 

[Eadamk]

Sad thing is I could retire early. I just don't have the energy

 

[fastlife]

Het trieste is dat ik eerder met pensioen kan gaan. Ik heb er gewoon de energie niet voor

safe travels

 

[Cathy Ames]

Sad thing is I could retire early. I just don't have the energy

God, I wish I could. I don't have the energy to keep working. It's like the mirror images of problems.

 

[fastlife]

God, I wish I could. I don't have the energy to keep working. It's like the mirror images of problems.

will you keep us posted if you drank the sn?

 

[Eadamk]

If I do drink It I will

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are so tired of everything. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[rationaltake]

So sorry. I understand.

 

[Eadamk]

I'm at work and I think I will go home early. I want to have some fun. Watch some videos. Then prepare. Take my meto. Ibuprofen, I take atenolol so I'll take that and Xanax and send delayed emails.
Or should I just quit my job and live off my retirement

 

[SofterSoftest]

I'm at work and I think I will go home early. I want to have some fun. Watch some videos. Then prepare. Take my meto. Ibuprofen, I take atenolol so I'll take that and Xanax and send delayed emails.
Or should I just quit my job and live off my retirement

First, I'm so sorry you are in so much pain that you are left with CTB as an option. I can't tell you how often I've been there, and I can really relate to the feeling of being so overwhelmed that no other real choices seem available on the horizon.

Here are my thoughts. If there is even an inkling that you have another option (early retirement), could there be a way for you to explore that, maybe even just temporarily? CTB is always there. You have everything you need for SN, and SN can last a long time if stored properly. I say all of this very cautiously, because I don't know the specifics of your situation and/or the pain/suffering that you are in, but it sounds to me like there is maybe a bit of hesitation about whether CTB is truly what you want. If your life is such that you can still experience some fun and maybe even enjoy an early retirement, why not give that a try and see how it goes?

Maybe a part of me is projecting because early retirement would be a dream for me. Work is one of the big reasons I want to CTB, so being able to stop working would probably halt a lot of my feelings for at least some time. That being said, however you want to move forward, I send you my care.

 

[Cathy Ames]

I'm at work and I think I will go home early. I want to have some fun. Watch some videos. Then prepare. Take my meto. Ibuprofen, I take atenolol so I'll take that and Xanax and send delayed emails.
Or should I just quit my job and live off my retirement

I advise option two! Travel. Acquire a new hobby. Binge watch all of the shows, ALL OF THEM. Read some books. See if you can hang in there long enough for your mother not to outlive her son. CTB will still be there.

Maybe a part of me is projecting because early retirement would be a dream for me. Work is one of the big reasons I want to CTB, so being able to stop working would probably halt a lot of my feelings for at least some time. That being said, however you want to move forward, I send you my care.

Oh, you said that much better than I did. I have to apologize for projecting.

 

[Eadamk]

It's been two years since my wife died and I just don't feel like going on. I've got my estate in order and I want to join her.

 

[Cathy Ames]

It's been two years since my wife died and I just don't feel like going on. I've got my estate in order and I want to join her.

I understand.

 

[Eadamk]

no, I'm going to quit my job and retire early. I can sell my house and move to the south and buy a place with the profits. I deserve to live. I'm not going to die over being depressed. I have enough that I can live out my life without working and retire early. yes. there is more than one way to be done. fade out

 

[sealbabies]

Happy for you man, and glad you could find another option. Peace

 

[DraktarLim]

i wish you all the best.

 

[sharky]

no, I'm going to quit my job and retire early. I can sell my house and move to the south and buy a place with the profits. I deserve to live. I'm not going to die over being depressed. I have enough that I can live out my life without working and retire early. yes. there is more than one way to be done. fade out

That sounds great. I hope everything works out for you

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Whatever happens, I wish you peace.

 

[Cathy Ames]

no, I'm going to quit my job and retire early. I can sell my house and move to the south and buy a place with the profits. I deserve to live. I'm not going to die over being depressed. I have enough that I can live out my life without working and retire early. yes. there is more than one way to be done. fade out

Change of scenery could be really helpful.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

no, I'm going to quit my job and retire early. I can sell my house and move to the south and buy a place with the profits. I deserve to live. I'm not going to die over being depressed. I have enough that I can live out my life without working and retire early. yes. there is more than one way to be done. fade out

I think it's the right decision and you deserve it. I hope things turn out well for you. Anyway, we are here for you and we support you. You're not alone.

 

[Cathy Ames]

Last seen April 23.

@Eadamk, if you changed your mind or survived (and maybe went to rehab?), please come back and tell us how you are doing.