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unrealtournament

unrealtournament

2good11you
Sep 21, 2025
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i can't draw, i can't make music, i can't make photography, i can't make art, i can't write, i am completely incapable of expressing my struggle to anyone because i am essentially terrible at everything, and i envy others who aren't. all i can do is keep it all to myself because there is no way i can portray my helplessness to anyone, i want this suffering to just end.
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
624
I feel the same. It's frustrating.
 
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Sheepskin

Sheepskin

I've tried nothing, everything works
Sep 29, 2025
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I can't even express what I'm going through on here without feeling like my words are inadequate to what I want to convey or just even talk about, including this. I don't know. I'm so done with every part of this existance
 
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Jul 17, 2025
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I can't even express what I'm going through on here without feeling like my words are inadequate to what I want to convey or just even talk about, including this. I don't know. I'm so done with every part of this existance
What happens when you try to express it in different forms?
 
PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
The majority of people are talentless, so you're not alone.

The best thing you can do is explore with different things. It doesn't need to be something popular like drawing or music, sometimes the way you express yourself can come from other things that aren't as common.
 
Sheepskin

Sheepskin

I've tried nothing, everything works
Sep 29, 2025
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What happens when you try to express it in different forms?
The same thing, even if I manage to force myself to attempt doing anything art related. I probably should have highlighted that *even on here* I feel unable to express myself (the worst part is that I'm a somewhat competent painter, I'm passionate about music, I like literature, I've been told to have an eye for photography, I'm just a fucking failue, even in this regard)
 
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