It's so hard. I have my cat (and I know how lucky I am to have her). She is my life. If it weren't for her I wouldn't be here. I cry a lot. I wish I could just die of the loneliness. Sorry, I wish I could be more upbeat.
Even though I'm with people, it's still shit. I've always felt lonely and fucked in life even though being with people. Family. Girlfriend. Kids. Whatever. Every day is just torment.
I understand how you feel (my daughter was murdered). You never get over the pain of being without that person. There is a permanent hole in your heart. I am so sorry you are going through such pain. Please know I am thinking of you. If you need to "talk" please feel free. Take care of your self.
Hello starrystarry. I am very sorry to hear about your daughter, it must be awful to experience that. I hope they found who did it and the person got its punishment, or that they will find the person in the future and he/she will get what they deserve.
Thank you Kennish for your compassion. Unfortunately, the person who killed her was my ex-husband (her step-father). No one was ever held accountable for her death. The police told me, "Your daughter is dead, just leave things alone." This is a huge part of my depression the fact that no one gave a shit that he took her life. There is no justice in this world. Again, thank you so much for your compassion, it is much appreciated.
I hope you have a wonderful, peaceful holiday - you deserve it!! Enjoy every minute.
I'm sorry to hear that. But if they know who did it, why wasn't he held accountable for it if I may ask?
Because he wasn't the only one who was there and they all lied to the cops and the coroner (who felt sorry for them). This is what is called a miscarriage of justice. All I can hope is that he rots in hell (if there is a hell). That plus he was a good old boy Marine.
Sorry about your daughter, when we lose the most important people in our life it just rips out our soul. Deep dark pain and anguish. We will never be the same.
I am sorry to hear that. Are you in the US? It sounds like that from the story of the law.
I am in the US (wish I wasn't). Ironically, I've worked for attorneys for 30 years and seen things that are so wrong but they get away with it. It's all about the money and prestige - the attorneys don't give a crap about their clients. After my daughter died, I found a letter from one of the girls who was with her when she died to another girl that was with her when she died. It stated he was responsible for her death. I took the letter to the cops. That's when they told me that she was dead to just let things go. By marine, I mean he was in the U.S. Marine Corp (U.S. military). There are times I get so angry it scares me.
I'm sorry to hear that. Even when there are evidence and witness statements it's not possible to charge him for it. The law is fucked.
The police didn't want to do anything to him because he was in the military and I hope he goes to hell when he dies for doing what he did. Sorry, sometimes I think everyone knows what I mean. LOL
I'm so sorry for what happened to you.
I find it so cruel that you have not obtained any social support after what happened to you. Have you tried contacting some association that deals with victims of crimes?
I'm so sorry to hear this. It seems "children" now don't respect or care about their parents (not all are like this). My son told me to get the fuck out of his house six years ago - he lives less than a mile from where I live and I've seen him once - he looked at me and kept moving. Sad very sad.
Truth be told nobody really cares. That's the problem with the world - nobody cares about anybody else. It is killing me.
I'm sorry about that. Even though I have some little family and some friends, I have no life. I have no happiness. I feel alone all the time. Even with or without people. Even at times when I was in relationships. I hate life.
I believe sometimes it is worse to be alone around people rather than being lonely alone. But loneliness is a horrible feeling no matter how you see it. I hope you find some peace this christmas.
I care. But I can understand what you mean. After I was open about my suicidal feelings, my brother and friends have distanced themselves. My brother said that he didn't want that "kind of talk" in his life. It's fucked up. I have friends that said that if I take my life it's okay. That was really good to hear.
Kennish - I am so sorry you are having such a difficult time. When I told my "friends" that I was suicidal, they stopped calling, talking, seeing - everything - it was almost as if I had the bubonic plague. Actually, I might have been treated nicer. lol My son is an asshole. I raised him on my own (his father is also an asshole). He found this girl, married her (she doesn't like me) and then told me to get the fuck out of his house about 6 or 7 years ago. They had a baby - so I'm a grandma, but not really (unforgivable). I live less than a mile from where he lives. Life is just too hard, too many tears, too much pain. I am here for you too. It helps me to help others (even if I'm not really helping). It takes my mind off my issues. Be kind to yourself, don't be so hard on yourself.
