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Prime0

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May 16, 2023
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I just hate it. I don't want to be alive, I don't want to keep participating to the rat race, I don't want to keep chasing the cheese, life is just an addiction game, people have the right to enjoy it ok, but why tf was I dragged into this bullshit too, being in non existence and in eternal peace seems more logical to me than to experience this worthless thing, I am in peace when sleeping and I'm not bothering anyone.

But if I decide to opt out I have to keep it a secret and jump or hang myself or do another thing or try to search for more painless methods and apply them if I even can with the means I have.

What even is the government's reasoning for not legalizing euthanasia? There are always jacktards that oppose it with bullshit arguments such as "people can be forced" "it's a slippery slope" "people could change their minds", guess what jacktards, I've been waiting for death since like 8 years, I'm 21 now, it doesn't change, it never changes. Is it better for me to die from testicular cancer at the rip age of 65, or to be stabbed by a random while crossing the street, or to have a car accident? People are sooooo focused on chasing the cheese, that combined with the fact that we can't even choose our own fate makes me want to die even more. These jackasses even arrested dr Kevorkian, for "murder" charges? Lol, for giving people a choice? Such a silly logic.

Now there may be slightly reasonable arguments such as "who is gonna finance it? will it be financed through taxpayer money?" well, it doesn't have to be government regulated. There could be private euthanasia centers, where people give a certain amount of fee in order to opt out (I'm pretty sure even the laziest people would be very productive and work their asses off just to get that), or there is not even a need for that, the reason why people can't buy nembutal (which is the oral solution that is given to people in euthanasia, at least in some of them) is because it's criminalized, where there's a demand, there's also an offer, if it was decriminalized, people could simply buy it through third party sellers even via sites such as amazon. See? Everyone is happy. No taxpayer money goes to waste, chemists earn money, and people who choose not to be here get what they want. Except for the government

And there is a missconception in this stupid society that everyone who wants to die is "depressed", no dumbasses, I'm not depressed. I'm a healthy, working individual. But being "healthy" doesn't change jack shit, I just have a different point of view and I don't think life is worth it for the little "rewards" it gives us, from the most religious person to the most secular one, everyone loses their shit somehow when suiciding is mentioned, it's as if I'm in a life cult, everywhere around me is filled with zealots, opting out is almost never considered as a rational decision, but moreso as a tragic, dramatic decision that people should cry about, that's very stupid.

I didn't choose to be born, I didn't commit a crime, so why the fuck I can't die peacefully with my own choice whenever I choose because I decided that was enough but rather have to suffer and "wait for my destiny" according to society for some reason? Is the end goal to live as long as possible or something? What do I get for doing that? I can't consider a society that is still very bigot towards death and where people loses their shits and goes to "OMG GET HELP GET HELP ALARM ALARMMM" mode as a healthy and developed one, in an ideal society people would just get a gun or nembutal in exchange of some money, that's why money exists to begin with. To get what you desire, but for some reason, it doesn't apply for death. Huh, at least Americans have guns, so they are lucky in that sense.

Like, I'm either gonna die a horrific death at the ripe age of maybe 70 after having wage slaved my whole life, or probably from suicide one day, so it doesn't make sense for me not to have access to a peaceful death.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I really understand, the fact that euthanasia is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what is such horrific, terrible extreme cruelty, all that anti-suicide does is cause way more torture and agony in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer.

The fact that euthanasia is denied even know existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it is such a terrible crime to me, no matter what I'll prefer the peace of non-existence over being tortured in this futile existence, it's horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long just to face the torture of old age but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, to suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me, I see existence as a mistake that never should had been imposed.
 
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I hate it too. Especially a night like tonight or insomnia just absolutely tortures me.
 
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Feb 10, 2026
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I ask people if they'd prefer me to go peacefully and happy surrounded by friends and family, or violently in the dark somewhere, alone and afraid.
 
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Feb 27, 2025
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Not only can we not die a painless and peaceful death if we choose to because it's "illegal", now taxpayer money is going into suicide barriers on bridges and things like that. They want to prevent suicides, which makes it so much more difficult for us. We will find a way, and that's that, but it's just so much harder and it's making my mental health 10000 xs worse because I can't find a viable way to die that won't cause pain, or worse yet, might not work.
 
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May 16, 2023
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Not only can we not die a painless and peaceful death if we choose to because it's "illegal", now taxpayer money is going into suicide barriers on bridges and things like that. They want to prevent suicides, which makes it so much more difficult for us. We will find a way, and that's that, but it's just so much harder and it's making my mental health 10000 xs worse because I can't find a viable way to die that won't cause pain, or worse yet, might not work.
I don't understand their obsession with preventing it, what do they even earn? At "best" people are gonna keep living with suicidal ideations, nothing will change. At "worst", they are gonna kill themselves anyway, but this time in harder ways. It's such a retarded thing to do.
 
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Dec 10, 2025
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I suspect that governments are simply keen to ensure that those contemplating suicide continue to 'participate' in society by paying taxes; they couldn't care less whether we are in pain, they only care whether we are working. So, from their perspective, when one person dies by suicide, it represents the loss of decades of potential labour. To prevent more people from easily and permanently 'escaping' society, they have made the conditions for assisted dying extremely onerous, or have simply made it illegal or a criminal offence.
 
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NeverHis

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Jan 14, 2024
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I suspect that governments are simply keen to ensure that those contemplating suicide continue to 'participate' in society by paying taxes; they couldn't care less whether we are in pain, they only care whether we are working. So, from their perspective, when one person dies by suicide, it represents the loss of decades of potential labour. To prevent more people from easily and permanently 'escaping' society, they have made the conditions for assisted dying extremely onerous, or have simply made it illegal or a criminal offence.
But many of us are already on Disability Benefits and unable to work. Meaning that we're actually draining people's tax money rather than adding to the tax pool. And yet, they're making it too difficult to get done.
 
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SASU-KE

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Nov 26, 2025
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And there is a missconception in this stupid society that everyone who wants to die is "depressed", no dumbasses, I'm not depressed. I'm a healthy, working individual. But being "healthy" doesn't change jack shit, I just have a different point of view and I don't think life is worth it for the little "rewards" it gives us, from the most religious person to the most secular one, everyone loses their shit somehow when suiciding is mentioned, it's as if I'm in a life cult, everywhere around me is filled with zealots, opting out is almost never considered as a rational decision, but moreso as a tragic, dramatic decision that people should cry about, that's very stupid.
Well said. I also have a similar mindset. If the juice isn't worth the squeeze, then why squeeze?
 
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HopelessScientist

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Jan 24, 2023
62
What even is the government's reasoning for not legalizing euthanasia? There are always jacktards that oppose it with bullshit arguments such as "people can be forced" "it's a slippery slope" "people could change their minds", guess what jacktards, I've been waiting for death since like 8 years, I'm 21 now, it doesn't change, it never changes.
I feel like few people can understand the horror of having wanted to die as a prepubescent child. We were never happy, not even as children, how the fuck are we gonna magically become happy someday?
Is it better for me to die from testicular cancer at the rip age of 65, or to be stabbed by a random while crossing the street, or to have a car accident? People are sooooo focused on chasing the cheese, that combined with the fact that we can't even choose our own fate makes me want to die even more. These jackasses even arrested dr Kevorkian, for "murder" charges? Lol, for giving people a choice? Such a silly logic.
People are so disconnected from the reality that we all deteriorate and die. People might want to live now, might be happy now, but cancer is just around the corner, alzheimer's, parkinsons, diabetes. We're all gonna end up disabled, and we're all going to die, and one by one, our loves ones are destined to die. I suppose my only reason not to ctb is that I know I am capable as a researcher and hope to go into researching debilitating neurological illnesses. Sure, I have to suffer the next few decades, but I believe in that potential... If I ever do manage to get better.
Now there may be slightly reasonable arguments such as "who is gonna finance it? will it be financed through taxpayer money?" well, it doesn't have to be government regulated. There could be private euthanasia centers, where people give a certain amount of fee in order to opt out (I'm pretty sure even the laziest people would be very productive and work their asses off just to get that), or there is not even a need for that, the reason why people can't buy nembutal (which is the oral solution that is given to people in euthanasia, at least in some of them) is because it's criminalized, where there's a demand, there's also an offer, if it was decriminalized, people could simply buy it through third party sellers even via sites such as amazon. See? Everyone is happy. No taxpayer money goes to waste, chemists earn money, and people who choose not to be here get what they want. Except for the government
Euthanasia boofs like in futurama would be my ideal haha. I think people would value life more if people could just opt out, and maybe think twice before bringing a child into this world.
And there is a missconception in this stupid society that everyone who wants to die is "depressed", no dumbasses, I'm not depressed. I'm a healthy, working individual. But being "healthy" doesn't change jack shit, I just have a different point of view and I don't think life is worth it for the little "rewards" it gives us, from the most religious person to the most secular one, everyone loses their shit somehow when suiciding is mentioned, it's as if I'm in a life cult, everywhere around me is filled with zealots, opting out is almost never considered as a rational decision, but moreso as a tragic, dramatic decision that people should cry about, that's very stupid.

I didn't choose to be born, I didn't commit a crime, so why the fuck I can't die peacefully with my own choice whenever I choose because I decided that was enough but rather have to suffer and "wait for my destiny" according to society for some reason? Is the end goal to live as long as possible or something? What do I get for doing that? I can't consider a society that is still very bigot towards death and where people loses their shits and goes to "OMG GET HELP GET HELP ALARM ALARMMM" mode as a healthy and developed one, in an ideal society people would just get a gun or nembutal in exchange of some money, that's why money exists to begin with. To get what you desire, but for some reason, it doesn't apply for death. Huh, at least Americans have guns, so they are lucky in that sense.

Like, I'm either gonna die a horrific death at the ripe age of maybe 70 after having wage slaved my whole life, or probably from suicide one day, so it doesn't make sense for me not to have access to a peaceful death.
Yeah, even when I briefly recovered from depression I was still suicidal. Still, I think finding meaning in your life, even if you decide to ctb eventually would be worthwhile. Make your suffering lesser until that day.
 
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2muchpain2

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yea, I don't get why westerners in particular are so against MAID and other such services. Canada is a country that supports it, but the usa, forget it.
 

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