When I was on surviving antidepressants forum and trying to get off meds, I was annoyed how some people acted like everyone can recover eventually.
At one point I couldn't even post without my posts being approved by mods just because I was venting once and I went a bit hard lol.
Some mods there also think they are always right and know everything. Reminded me of psychiatrists ironically.
Humans are very flawed and their "best intentions" don't really translate well when their egos are huge.
OH MY GOD, I can't believe I found someone else who has gone through that or has felt the same way.
In my case I've been off meds for more than 3 years now, got severe cognitive issues, DPDR, emotional blunting and so on from the first few pills and the thing is that nothing changed even after stopping, I never went through any withdrawal either and I just kept declining and declining both during me taking psych drugs and after I stopped them. I don't think words would be enough to describe how much worse I've gotten in these 3 years.
But anyway, that was just for some context. I never ended up making a thread there (mainly because of my issues and it's overwhelming to try and structure all the info and express myself coherently etc ) but I've read through pretty much every post. I've found so many people who either get stuck with the damage with no change or they keep worsening even if they stay away from any substances and supplements, sleep and eat well, reduce stress and everything else you could think of. And this can last for
years or decades.
Hell, a lot of people don't even go through withdrawal (just like me) and it's obvious that something else's going on with us but they just keep telling us that it's protracted withdrawal, that everyone has to experience the windows, waves and patterns and whatnot and that everyone's brain will eventually revert back. Jeez, I wish that was the case but it obviously isn't and like, I get that they're all just volunteers and obviously can't tell you "take this to fix it" but very often they refuse to accept the possibility of this happening, of it being permanent, of simply waiting not working. In the end they tell you "well, we can't help, go somewhere else" and they can't even accept why someone would be suicidal in that situation.
And just like you, they remind me of psychiatrists when they do that as well which makes me feel even more isolated and unheard.
I went on a bit of a rant which I apologize for but it's just so
validating to find someone who's felt the same way as you.