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FakeSmileGuy

FakeSmileGuy

hate myself lol
Apr 16, 2024
58
I want to end it all so bad, but I don't want to leave my family hurting. If I died, I don't know what would happen to my sister, she would be in so much pain. I don't know how the hell my family would cope. I want to leave but I don't want to hurt everyone that loves me. Anyone else ever feel like that? I just wish I wasn't loved so no one gets hurt when I leave.
 
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UglyCat

UglyCat

lljw
Jan 15, 2024
87
I want to end it all so bad, but I don't want to leave my family hurting. If I died, I don't know what would happen to my sister, she would be in so much pain. I don't know how the hell my family would cope. I want to leave but I don't want to hurt everyone that loves me. Anyone else ever feel like that? I just wish I wasn't loved so no one gets hurt when I leave.
i feel the same because in my family my cousin committed suicide :/
 
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AbsentMindedHuman

AbsentMindedHuman

One day, ill be free
Apr 25, 2024
133
Yes. I struggle with this every day. My dad took his life many years ago and I have been dealing with depression and ideation ever since. I want nothing more than to leave this cruel world and end my suffering, but i have so many people who love me and tell me often how much pain they would be in. WHY does their future expected pain dictate how I live life and prohibit me from any form or relief and grace.
 
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FakeSmileGuy

FakeSmileGuy

hate myself lol
Apr 16, 2024
58
That sucks, especially since you guys know the kind of pain doing that can cause for other people. I wish there was a way to leave without hurting anybody.
 
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chaoticdweeb

New Member
Apr 28, 2024
2
I want to end it all so bad, but I don't want to leave my family hurting. If I died, I don't know what would happen to my sister, she would be in so much pain. I don't know how the hell my family would cope. I want to leave but I don't want to hurt everyone that loves me. Anyone else ever feel like that? I just wish I wasn't loved so no one gets hurt when I leave.
I understand. My mom has already lost 2 children and it seems unfair to both her and I. That I'll be her 3rd dead son. And that I have to feel guilty for making her grieve a child a 3rd time. I watched her grieve already and I don't want to put her through that. But I also know I can't go on living because my suffering will never end. Maybe I deserve to suffer another 40 to 60 years. But I'm not strong enough to will my way through that.
 
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