I hate that I have dark skin than everyone else and I get discrimination because of it...my problem never ends it's feels suffocating......

[3rdworldsadness]

I always stayed myself away from people because my mom made me think I'm dirty and my dark skin is a sin. She would say you are dirty Infront of other siblings. I would be so alone growing up. I totally tried to isolate myself from people as much as I could that's why I only tried to focus on my studies but the system is so poor that opportunities were few

I know it will sound very mundane for a lighter skin person because the discrimination I go through is made me believe I was less than a human and it's so hurtful...my family is lighter tone but I have dark skin from my deceased father but it's extremely discriminated that I never made genuine friends or anyone. Now I feel like I'm in a pool of every bad possible condition to a human beside my discrimination I face so many abuses It's feels suffocated. I basically turn my back or go blank I just can't do this. I don't want to live like a garbage.

 

[brightsunshine]

Have you tried to make friends in the black community with people who understand your thoughts and will build up your self esteem? You are not alone with this thoughts. Feel hugged.

 

[discernment]

I'm really sorry, I can't imagine how much that must hurt especially to face that kind of discrimination from your own mom Your value isn't determined by anyone else and you're not less of a human