I hate talking about the future

[DAMN.]

I hate having to lie to people when they ask me what I'm doing next year. I have to keep telling people i'm going away to some school in the fall when i'm not even planning on living past this month. I would want to be honest but that's just not an option. I wish people could just let me go.

 

[hopelessdreams]

totally feel you. sometimes i laugh at myself because i make up all these plans, while i don't even know if i'll be alive by then.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it extremely depressing to think about the future personally. I do not want any future, instead I want to be gone. I do wish that we lived in a world where we could be open about our plans to ctb and others understood and accepted our decision. I understand why you would be frustrated at having to lie. Suicide should not be so stigmatised and our right to die should always be respected. I hope that you find relief from suffering.