Hey, I might be the youngest person on this platform(I just turned 18 a few days ago), and the problem is, I did something stupid academically. I'm currently in my last year of high school, and what I did may seem insignificant to your eyes, but it's putting such a heavy weight on my heart.
Recently, I was just denied entry to my dream university for a few years, not because of grades, not because I wasn't good enough, but because of something that happened during a coding competition. I had used AI when it explicitly told me not use AI, and I take full blame for that, and in the end, I got caught. I've worked so hard over the past year, and despite all of this, just one impulsive decision made and broke my dreams. Another problem here is my parents; they've had such high expectations for me, and they've all been explicitly told to do good on this competition, and that's why I tried so hard and ended up cheating. I don't know if I can live with them knowing this. I do have backup options I've gotten into the other "best school" in my country and I have jobs that have offered me a very high salary for me to drop out of high school(I work in tech).
Recently, because of this I've explored self-harm issues and large amounts of overthinking. Cutting myself with knives, overdosing on daily medication, and trying to choke myself, large amounts of mental self-degradation too. It's not very logical and I'm sorry if it didn't make any sense to any of you guys I just needed somewhere to say this and if anyone had advice it would be greatly appreciated as I can't go to any of my friends due to ego issues.
Recently, I was just denied entry to my dream university for a few years, not because of grades, not because I wasn't good enough, but because of something that happened during a coding competition. I had used AI when it explicitly told me not use AI, and I take full blame for that, and in the end, I got caught. I've worked so hard over the past year, and despite all of this, just one impulsive decision made and broke my dreams. Another problem here is my parents; they've had such high expectations for me, and they've all been explicitly told to do good on this competition, and that's why I tried so hard and ended up cheating. I don't know if I can live with them knowing this. I do have backup options I've gotten into the other "best school" in my country and I have jobs that have offered me a very high salary for me to drop out of high school(I work in tech).
Recently, because of this I've explored self-harm issues and large amounts of overthinking. Cutting myself with knives, overdosing on daily medication, and trying to choke myself, large amounts of mental self-degradation too. It's not very logical and I'm sorry if it didn't make any sense to any of you guys I just needed somewhere to say this and if anyone had advice it would be greatly appreciated as I can't go to any of my friends due to ego issues.
