I'm not trying to be ungratefull, but honestly i just want to move out and get the fuck away from her. The only thing that i think would keep me from going no contact is some pity for her.
I'm so jealous of people who can have mothers that they can trust and look for guidance to. Or ones who would choose caring for them and siblings instead of caring for their addictions and throwing their (and anyone elses that they can steal or get Access tos) money into them.
I'm not trying to play victim, i have a roof over me and i have food in the fridge, but if not for her stealing money from my father and making him pay off her debts, we would have been able to actually afford to have a house, or atleast live somewhere bigger that would actually fit my family.
Theres also the matter of what shes done to me and my siblings while my father was working in a different country (not that shes stopped, shes just calmed down kinda), but that feels too long and personal to air out.
I wish people who had kids would actually think about if they should have them.
I'm so jealous of people who can have mothers that they can trust and look for guidance to. Or ones who would choose caring for them and siblings instead of caring for their addictions and throwing their (and anyone elses that they can steal or get Access tos) money into them.
I'm not trying to play victim, i have a roof over me and i have food in the fridge, but if not for her stealing money from my father and making him pay off her debts, we would have been able to actually afford to have a house, or atleast live somewhere bigger that would actually fit my family.
Theres also the matter of what shes done to me and my siblings while my father was working in a different country (not that shes stopped, shes just calmed down kinda), but that feels too long and personal to air out.
I wish people who had kids would actually think about if they should have them.
